To Law or Not to Law

It's Confession Time...

as far as my goals for the New Year I have reached some and I have totally flaked on others. The main one is studying for the LSAT I am totally behing and I'm not putting in any effort as well. I think I'm just a student that has to be in the classroom because I'm having a hard time disciplining myself. I'm not sure if I want to be a lawyer for the prestige or if I'm pursuing it because I want to fulfil some need. I know my grades are not what they should be I also know that I have to get a ROCKING grade on my LSAT if I even stand a chance and it seems like every dufus around me is getting in law school. Ahhhh I need some heavenly help on this I hope through prayer that I find that one thing that I really need to do. As far as keeping up with this blog, clearly I've been lacking but I have a new job where I'm taking control of the social media for the an non=profit organization. I hope this might be the entry into what I want. I was listening to a podcast about FREEDOM and it really rang true to me. That's what I want, freedom to make decisions and to guide my life into one that glorifies God and all that he has done for me. I really love social media and I believe I would do a good job on television reporting the news or current events. I just hope I find an opening somwhere and if I do I know that I will give it 100%. So what to do about Law School. I'm going to really dedicate myself to studyiing for 3 hours a day just so that I can learn the art of discipline. Just like working out you just have to do it without excuses to get results. Talking about workout I feel like I've lost some weight, it could be due to the fact that now that I'm doing some temp work I actually eat less because I'm constantly being hounded by the people I work for. That's the one thing I love about blogging. I have the opputunity to vent and just get some of the frustration out. I plan to get the last two courses that I need with my nect check and really buckle down to get work done. I owe it to myself to finish what I've started because I have a lot to offer and I'm hardworking. So Master's Degree or Law School...what do you think????

On to some totally frivilous stuff. I went on a total shopping spree this past weekend. I shopped till I was weak. I literally bought out Club Monaco haha..I love that store and if I continue to work downtown I totally want to get a job there again. The clothes are awesome and the discount aint that bad either woot woot.

Breakdown of What I bought

-Club Monaco Grey Boyfriend Jacket

-Grey Club Monaco Shawl

-Stripped Gap skirt

-Gap long sleeve tees

-7 odds and ends from Zara (post to come about that questionable store)

I also found my next watch

Tiger and Music

Unless you're living under a rock you either watched or heard about the "Tiger Woods WAH WAH of the year" My opinion on the whole matter is a bit nouveau because I believe that people cheat ALL THE TIME and it's quite easy to get caught up in the lifestyle if one does not have a strong will. People in relationships check out other people ALL the time and the line between checking to touching is very thin especially if given the opportunity. I've never been one to check in on boyfriends or even look through a cell phone so I'm not totally sure how one would feel if cheated on. I do know this, I would not embarrass myself or run after my mate with a golf club. I feel sorry for Elin, its not easy to have your business flashed all over the media and the "ladies" that Mr. Woods had extra-marital affairs with are (pause) special to say the least. I wish he had chose beautiful girls or girls who even looked like Elin (she's very pretty) but he chose dog-faced women which is insulting in of its self. Moral of the story kiddies: Either you cheat with stealth or you make sure that the ladies/gents that you mess around with have something to lose as well. No use in shacking up with hee-haw from Kentucky whose looking for a come up, ya dig?

On to some exciting news..to me. My Ipod Touch was under major construction but whilst studying for my LSAT prep class it dawned me that I could send pay pal some money and blah blah I got it cleared up and my $25 gift card is ALMOST finished. I love music and I have everything from Tina Turner, Donnell Jones to Keane just some random crazy stuff. :) So I downloaded a bunch of running music because I'm on the 5k plan and I hope to compete at a church event in July. So I am a very happy camper and maybe I'll start to use my Daniel (my ipod's name) now that it actually works:)

Cheers..

p.s diet is going well but I'm still hating all this stomach flab BOOOOO

preppy tip: don't forget how versatile cardigans can be. Layering especially with this persnickety weather makes the "cardi" the PERFECT transitional piece.

Hearts & Lent

This weekend was pretty low-key... I didn't have a Valentine so I just hung with my cousins and went shopping on Monday. I didn't buy anything mind you because I'm really trying to guilt myself into taking my diet/workout more seriously so no new clothes until I can fit in my old ones. I was thinking a lot about S this weekend as he just blew up on me and has not made contact over the last few days. I think his problem was more of a All-Star weekend & Valentine hybrid but his email was shocking and puzzling. Alas, better I know that he's crazy now then later. As for my other friend D, I have no heard from him and I've deleted both from all accounts. I feel at peace because its very important that I'm treated very well by anyone that I choose to spend time with. It was my exes birthday yesterday, he turned 33 and I chose again to leave it in the past and just ignore his special day HA! I know it seems cruel but I think in order to break a bad habit you have to turn you back completely on it. I've been thinking a lot about Lent and trying to decide what I want to give up. I leaning towards not eating after 8 and processed food & meat. We'll see but if you're planning to give up anything please let me know in the comment section.

I think this Valentine hit particularly hard because for the first time I really had no one to call or even boo love. Plus no one called or offered to boo love which made it particularly sad. I have to decide this year if I'm going to really pursue relationships or be single, I told myself that I would stop dating until May and I totally fell off that bandwagon and ended up having two mini breakups, So back to the drawing board which is drawing a big NO the next time a guy tries to "holler" or someone tries to hook me up.

anyways toodles..I need to study, write a chapter of my book and possibly go on a long walk with a podcast!!

p.s I NEED THESE SHOES above!!

Boys Boys Boys

I accomplished nothing today for good reason its' THAT time of month and I have nothing to give or offer on the first day. This week did not end well though I did give out resumes and start my book I did not study or put in my contacts. I plan to tackle that tomorrow and over the weekend. Now that we've cleared that out of the way let's get down to the real subject of this post. Boys Boys Boys:) Ahhh my love life has is more drama filled then a year worth of storylines from Young and the Restless. I have no luck in the love department a lot of it is my fault but I've dated some crazies and some good guys that I have literally spoiled. I have a bit of a commitment issue and I tend to get excited about a guy then 3 weeks later get bored with them. Its like Christmas when we meet and Halloween 3 weeks later. Well this latest guy that I've been talking to:

Talking: when you're not officially dating the person you're just in the beginning phase of the relationship.

We started off as friends and I believed that everything was going well, there was mild flirtation and he seemed like a well adjusted young man. He was young (26) but he seemed so mature that I let it slide. Well 2 weeks ago something turned and he totally shared with me his feelings about how much he liked me and how he was feening for me...totally shocked the shit out of me but I went along with it and we started talking during the day and night and we became text messaging champs, Well something happened and he is know ignoring me ????!!!?!???? Now if this was 5 years ago I would have sat down and analyzed this but at this point in my life I could care less. I mean who does this loser think he is, I thought about if I had offended him and even asked him what was wrong, he said nothing and I chose to believe him. Well he was on Facebook today and he did send any sort of greeting so I deleted him this evening and blocked him off MSN. Drastic...YES but I'm not playing those kiddie games this year. He can go sit in a corner...I have no patience for foolishness like that and I don't go around begging men for affection. I believe its the whole "Crap its almost Valentine's Day what should I do" I'm not playing that and don't even get me started on Mr. F who after a few outings has dropped off the face of the earth he can also kick rocks. So I'm back to my original plan of NOT talking or dating anyone until May. I need sometime to myself and I have no time or energy to be persuing relationships. It's not personal but I have somethings I have to clear up and out before I devote my time or heart to anyone.

The diet went well until I went to Bulk Barn today but its the 1st day of YOU KNOW WHAT..so I allow myself anything to eat I just have to workout tomorrow. I believe a run is in order

HOLLA

come back tomorrow where I discuss my latest Fashion Obsession:) call this my new Friday Feature:)

Losing the LAST !5 POUNDS and a Novel

So long story short I gained a lot of weight in the last two years and with some hard work and dedication I've taken more than half off. For some reason either my body is lazy or maybe my consumption of cookies have stalled my recent weight loss efforts. I have never had so much weight issues in my life as I've had in the last 4 years and I know once you get older your metabolism slows but this extra 15 is driving me bananas. I am doing the Lose It app on my Ipod-which is a daily tracking of my caloric consumption and trying to stay away from crappy food. In Alabama I tend to eat more of a plant/fruit driven diet but being in Toronto has kind of side swiped me. I'm back on the plan and exercising regularly so hopefully this weight will be off by my birthday in May. I really want to be 130-135 by my birthday. My goal weight 125 pounds which is small but where I feel best. I believe that once I find a job ( OH LORD I NEED A JOB) the weight will drop off. I tend to be skinnier whilst working, its kind of weird but it works for me. So though everything feels soggy I will persevere and remind myself that being healthy and fit is important because my body is a temple.

On the GET MY LIFE IN ORDER front, I took a test which basically proved to me that Media and/or Law is right up my alley. I know I belong on television I just have to find a way to get my foot in the door. I also got some disappointing news regarding a class, totally my fault I can't believe sometimes how much of a slacker I was..but I plan to rectify that wrong as soon as my check comes in the mail. I also started on which will hopefully be my first NOVEL!! Yes, the test also said that I could be an author and to be honest I always have movie and book plots floating through my head so I thought I would put some creativity down on paper. I have 3 chapters finished so far and its turning into a May-December Psycho Romance. Teenage Black girl falls in love with middle aged politician. Yeahhhh crazy huh;) Unfortch the contact front has not being going that well and the LSAT studying was interrupted by my crazy younger brother. I have to invest in laptop hopefully a MAC very soon.

I'm off to study/surf the net hee hee
HOLLA!

Haiti Relief Concert

Yesterday I hosted a concert benefitting the people of Haiti. The event was sponsored by ADRA and it was very encouraging to see so many people come out on Super Bowl Sunday to support the devastated people of Haiti. I, for one sometime take for granted all that God has done for me and I turn into a HUGE Cindy the Complainer. Well this tragedy has shed some light on how blessed I am and how important supporting humanitarian relief is. I woke up Sunday morning with a bloated stomach and I decided that I had to hit the street literally and I went on a hour walk. It felt nice to be outside and it calmed and relaxed me. While walking I thought a lot about my life, my goals and my NEW kind of not really boo:) I had a set back with a class and it really discouraged me but I have to dust myself off just like the people of Haiti and "keep it moving". So I plan to hand out some resumes, network and move forward. My life is a bit unstructured right now but hopefully with a job I'll be able to to balance, life, work and study.
If you feel impressed to help the people of Haiti and I think eventually yourself visit these sites

http://adra.com

This is not a Haitian problem, but a WORLD problem

hello...again?

So this blogging thingy isn't going so well for me..I take super long breaks and I guess since I'm well aware that no one is reading it, so I kind of get lax with it. This shall change starting today. I will blog solely to keep track of my progress in all things McKenzie. So for this inaugural part deux post I will list some of things that I want to accomplish by May 25th my birthday;


1) lose 15 pounds
2) Finish ALL course work
3) Run a 5k
4) Salsa Dance
5) Find a job I like/love
6) Feel confident with the LSAT
7) own a pair of Christian Louboutins (hey back off I can be frivolous)
8) Blog EVERYDAY
9) Eat 90% Vegetarian/Vegan
10) Perfect conversational French
11) Get in a serious relationship


So there you have it..I'm sure I will add some of things but for now that's the short list. Some things that you might not know.
1) I've been singing for almost 20 years
2) I'm legally blind in my left eye..contact post to come
3) I'm obsessed with fashion
4) I just quit my job
5) I taking the LSAT in June
6) I literally have a dozen lip glosses in my purses
7) don't even get me started on purses :)
8) I'm a foodie and my hips hate me for it
9) I have commitment issues
10) I'm religious

check back with me as I change my life:)

*hosting Haiti Relief Concert Sunday Feb 7, 2010
*producing a commercial for Crawford Adventist Academy