ahhhh

I'm sitting here with tummy cramps feeling pretty yucky and gross..I'm not sure what's going on but I literally ate everything in my house last night. It could be a case of nerves..or my cycle..I'm hoping its nerves:) So this is what I devoured between 12-5am

half a Fat burning protein bar
16 Quaker Oatmeal Squares with Almond Milk
Handful of Curry Chips


Writing that down that doesn't seem to bad...hmmm
For Dinner last night I had... a small portion of green beans, a serving of Sweet Potato Chunks, 2 California Rolls, 4 tiny piece of Oxtail, Some Veggie Meat it was tasty..but I had dinner at 11..maybe I should try eating before my nightly run so I'm not that hungry..:)

I guess I'm just feeling overwhelmed not feeling skinny enough, or cute enough or whatever enough and I just want him to love me..I need to drink some tea and woo-saaaaaa

ahhh hard work pays off..

So I fell asleep with the guy I currently love and I woke up literally dazed and confused. I wanted to lay down and just sleep but once I'm up this chickadee can't go back to bed. So...I went downstairs and washed some dishes and made myself a GREEN MONSTER...it was of course fricking delicious. My Green Monster contained..a handful of spinach, half a banana, some Slim Fast Vanilla Powder Shake stuff and two strawberries...oh yeah a stalk of celery. For some reason it took me forever to finish that shake. I believe its nerves..on Friday I go off to meet my ex who I havent seen in 3 years or so. I just feel fat and gross but I know that's not true and I just hope it goes more than well and we get married sometime during the week...hahaha..not really:)

At around 1:00 pm I gave Jillian a dirty look and got to it...dang that Jillian man she kicks my ass EVERY single workout. I mean I thought that I used to sweat with Billy but geeeez her workouts are pretty crazy!! I had sweat running down my face in my mouth (supergross) but hey I guess you can't lose weight without getting dirty. My wish would be to lose another 4 pounds before I go to NYC..not sure if that can happen but I'm going to work out like crazy and hope that i do some major damage in the stomach and butt area.

After my workout from hell, I finished the other half of my GREEN MONSTER and got dressed so that I could take in my dry cleaning. I did that and went to Shopper's (my obsession) and bought some more curry chips and a Coffee Crisp...don't ask me why I bought a chocolate bar I just needed something sweet...its the nerves I tell ya..
So I decided to make some Guac to go with my Curry Chips...I used a baby avocado, some yellow pepper and a tomato on its last leg with some sweet and spicy sauce from President's Choice...HOLY CRAP IT WAS GOOD..it was enough to keep me full..oh add in half a Coffee Crisp and another handful of chips. So yummy..

I'm just chilling right now, drinking water and listening to Maxwell..for dinner I'm planning on making sweet potato chips and eating the rest of my Mama's California Rolls..but before I eat I plan to go on a long run...and I'm so proud that I've been running it under 1 hour:)

That's it for now...
Current Obsessions: Lululemon and "Bad Habits" by Maxwell!!!
WHERE HAS LULULEMON BEEN ALL MY LIFE!!!!

hellllo

Hello!



So my detox/diet hit a small sag yesterday. I went shopping with my favorite cousin, Simone and I bought some yogurt covered raisins:) BIG MISTAKE I almost ate the whole container and I was eating them all through the night..I may have to run to undo the MAJOR Drama..but I did pick up some Almond Breeze for the first time.....WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE!!!! So good and tasty it's totally kicking Soy's ass right now. I had a small bowl with Oatmeal Quaker Squares SO TASTY.


Dinner:

Chicken w/sweet potato fries and avocado
medium portion of baby new potatoes

Breakfast: Green Monster w/cherries
3 cups of Green Tea
Lots o'water
HANDFULS of yogurt covered raisins


Now I feel a a bit bloated...I think I have to run and do some tae bo today to offset this splurge WAHHHH

Toodles!

Hello From Canada!

Ahhh I love being home, I wish I could stay. Well my full time job is to workout as my loving mother reminds me everday, so far so good.
I totally have to ramp it up as I'm seeing my ex-boyfriend in less than two weeks. (Old Man out Young Man in) lol. So I'm doing a mini detox and I'll be writing down everything I've ate starting today.

Breakfast

Small bowl of Oatmeal Sqaures & 2% milk (ran out of soy)
handful of grapes

Pre-workout Snack

half a Jamaican Patty

I'm so tired I can't believe I kicked so many times snack (lol)

Green Monster which included:
2 stalks of celery
handful of spinach
Mango juice
half an apple
it tastes very intresting (huge smile)

and the rest of my Jamaican Patti

I really want some chicken for dinner tonight and I don't want to cook it..lets' see if I can convince my Mum to take me to Swiss Chalet:)

oh yes, I'm also working out 3 times a day.
Tae Bo at noon
Jillian at 6
Long-ass walk at 10

hmmm

So my mother has a boyfriend..or male friend. I'm trying to be positive and like him but I don't. Or maybe I don't like who she becomes around him, very forgetful and dismissive. I am ready for him to take his exit. I could be "hating" because my relationship is slowly falling apart. This ex-boyfriend of mine is reminding me why he's my ex!! So annoying, planning a simple trip is more trouble than its worth and I just want to blow the whole thing up. I constantly call him, but he never calls me back..childish and immature I tell you.

The weight loss has been good so far, I've been working out and eating well and I have two events coming up this week so I'm hoping to lose 3-4 pounds this week. I think I can do it. I'm doing tae bo in the morning or mid afternoon and running at night. The running has really helped so has eating balanced meals and my stomach condition has stopped as well. Just checking in, not sure if anyone is reading this but its nice to vent on here:)

sad sad SAD

i am wearing a size ten dress that I had to let out to the wedding..depression isnt the word..

I am fat with eye issues

It seems like this blog is turning into a weight blog..not my initial plan but my weight is my major struggle. Sometimes I feel like I can put on ten pounds in a matter of hours. I often wonder if I have a thyroid problem and why its taking so long for the weight to come off. Today is not a good day but I will hold my head up and keep moving forward. I am drinking a slim fast shake for breakfast and I just had my 2ND cup of Green Acai tea. I'm at the place in my tea ministry LOL that I can drink it without any sugar or milk. WOOOO that's a biggie. I plan to work out today..to be honest I haven't worked out since Wednesday after the dress fiasco I've kind of lost interest in sweating..but I have kept to my diet. My eyes are killing me..I'm not sure if I've mentioned that I have Kerotacuonus..major eye disease..so double vision is a biggie in my world..since I've lost my right contact (to be honest I never wear them) my left eye has been tearing up and just aggravating me..ARRGGGHHH I'm not having a good week and I have a sneaking suspicion that my period is about to start. Oh well..if anyone has any tips for losing 20 pounds in week hit me up in the comments LOL...no seriously hit me up!!

Sometimes I wonder if God is punishing me from having the body I want..I know that's crazy but sometimes I wonder:(
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