Hearts & Lent

This weekend was pretty low-key... I didn't have a Valentine so I just hung with my cousins and went shopping on Monday. I didn't buy anything mind you because I'm really trying to guilt myself into taking my diet/workout more seriously so no new clothes until I can fit in my old ones. I was thinking a lot about S this weekend as he just blew up on me and has not made contact over the last few days. I think his problem was more of a All-Star weekend & Valentine hybrid but his email was shocking and puzzling. Alas, better I know that he's crazy now then later. As for my other friend D, I have no heard from him and I've deleted both from all accounts. I feel at peace because its very important that I'm treated very well by anyone that I choose to spend time with. It was my exes birthday yesterday, he turned 33 and I chose again to leave it in the past and just ignore his special day HA! I know it seems cruel but I think in order to break a bad habit you have to turn you back completely on it. I've been thinking a lot about Lent and trying to decide what I want to give up. I leaning towards not eating after 8 and processed food & meat. We'll see but if you're planning to give up anything please let me know in the comment section.

I think this Valentine hit particularly hard because for the first time I really had no one to call or even boo love. Plus no one called or offered to boo love which made it particularly sad. I have to decide this year if I'm going to really pursue relationships or be single, I told myself that I would stop dating until May and I totally fell off that bandwagon and ended up having two mini breakups, So back to the drawing board which is drawing a big NO the next time a guy tries to "holler" or someone tries to hook me up.

anyways toodles..I need to study, write a chapter of my book and possibly go on a long walk with a podcast!!

p.s I NEED THESE SHOES above!!

Boys Boys Boys

I accomplished nothing today for good reason its' THAT time of month and I have nothing to give or offer on the first day. This week did not end well though I did give out resumes and start my book I did not study or put in my contacts. I plan to tackle that tomorrow and over the weekend. Now that we've cleared that out of the way let's get down to the real subject of this post. Boys Boys Boys:) Ahhh my love life has is more drama filled then a year worth of storylines from Young and the Restless. I have no luck in the love department a lot of it is my fault but I've dated some crazies and some good guys that I have literally spoiled. I have a bit of a commitment issue and I tend to get excited about a guy then 3 weeks later get bored with them. Its like Christmas when we meet and Halloween 3 weeks later. Well this latest guy that I've been talking to:

Talking: when you're not officially dating the person you're just in the beginning phase of the relationship.

We started off as friends and I believed that everything was going well, there was mild flirtation and he seemed like a well adjusted young man. He was young (26) but he seemed so mature that I let it slide. Well 2 weeks ago something turned and he totally shared with me his feelings about how much he liked me and how he was feening for me...totally shocked the shit out of me but I went along with it and we started talking during the day and night and we became text messaging champs, Well something happened and he is know ignoring me ????!!!?!???? Now if this was 5 years ago I would have sat down and analyzed this but at this point in my life I could care less. I mean who does this loser think he is, I thought about if I had offended him and even asked him what was wrong, he said nothing and I chose to believe him. Well he was on Facebook today and he did send any sort of greeting so I deleted him this evening and blocked him off MSN. Drastic...YES but I'm not playing those kiddie games this year. He can go sit in a corner...I have no patience for foolishness like that and I don't go around begging men for affection. I believe its the whole "Crap its almost Valentine's Day what should I do" I'm not playing that and don't even get me started on Mr. F who after a few outings has dropped off the face of the earth he can also kick rocks. So I'm back to my original plan of NOT talking or dating anyone until May. I need sometime to myself and I have no time or energy to be persuing relationships. It's not personal but I have somethings I have to clear up and out before I devote my time or heart to anyone.

The diet went well until I went to Bulk Barn today but its the 1st day of YOU KNOW WHAT..so I allow myself anything to eat I just have to workout tomorrow. I believe a run is in order

HOLLA

come back tomorrow where I discuss my latest Fashion Obsession:) call this my new Friday Feature:)

Losing the LAST !5 POUNDS and a Novel

So long story short I gained a lot of weight in the last two years and with some hard work and dedication I've taken more than half off. For some reason either my body is lazy or maybe my consumption of cookies have stalled my recent weight loss efforts. I have never had so much weight issues in my life as I've had in the last 4 years and I know once you get older your metabolism slows but this extra 15 is driving me bananas. I am doing the Lose It app on my Ipod-which is a daily tracking of my caloric consumption and trying to stay away from crappy food. In Alabama I tend to eat more of a plant/fruit driven diet but being in Toronto has kind of side swiped me. I'm back on the plan and exercising regularly so hopefully this weight will be off by my birthday in May. I really want to be 130-135 by my birthday. My goal weight 125 pounds which is small but where I feel best. I believe that once I find a job ( OH LORD I NEED A JOB) the weight will drop off. I tend to be skinnier whilst working, its kind of weird but it works for me. So though everything feels soggy I will persevere and remind myself that being healthy and fit is important because my body is a temple.

On the GET MY LIFE IN ORDER front, I took a test which basically proved to me that Media and/or Law is right up my alley. I know I belong on television I just have to find a way to get my foot in the door. I also got some disappointing news regarding a class, totally my fault I can't believe sometimes how much of a slacker I was..but I plan to rectify that wrong as soon as my check comes in the mail. I also started on which will hopefully be my first NOVEL!! Yes, the test also said that I could be an author and to be honest I always have movie and book plots floating through my head so I thought I would put some creativity down on paper. I have 3 chapters finished so far and its turning into a May-December Psycho Romance. Teenage Black girl falls in love with middle aged politician. Yeahhhh crazy huh;) Unfortch the contact front has not being going that well and the LSAT studying was interrupted by my crazy younger brother. I have to invest in laptop hopefully a MAC very soon.

I'm off to study/surf the net hee hee
HOLLA!

Haiti Relief Concert

Yesterday I hosted a concert benefitting the people of Haiti. The event was sponsored by ADRA and it was very encouraging to see so many people come out on Super Bowl Sunday to support the devastated people of Haiti. I, for one sometime take for granted all that God has done for me and I turn into a HUGE Cindy the Complainer. Well this tragedy has shed some light on how blessed I am and how important supporting humanitarian relief is. I woke up Sunday morning with a bloated stomach and I decided that I had to hit the street literally and I went on a hour walk. It felt nice to be outside and it calmed and relaxed me. While walking I thought a lot about my life, my goals and my NEW kind of not really boo:) I had a set back with a class and it really discouraged me but I have to dust myself off just like the people of Haiti and "keep it moving". So I plan to hand out some resumes, network and move forward. My life is a bit unstructured right now but hopefully with a job I'll be able to to balance, life, work and study.
If you feel impressed to help the people of Haiti and I think eventually yourself visit these sites

http://adra.com

This is not a Haitian problem, but a WORLD problem

hello...again?

So this blogging thingy isn't going so well for me..I take super long breaks and I guess since I'm well aware that no one is reading it, so I kind of get lax with it. This shall change starting today. I will blog solely to keep track of my progress in all things McKenzie. So for this inaugural part deux post I will list some of things that I want to accomplish by May 25th my birthday;


1) lose 15 pounds
2) Finish ALL course work
3) Run a 5k
4) Salsa Dance
5) Find a job I like/love
6) Feel confident with the LSAT
7) own a pair of Christian Louboutins (hey back off I can be frivolous)
8) Blog EVERYDAY
9) Eat 90% Vegetarian/Vegan
10) Perfect conversational French
11) Get in a serious relationship


So there you have it..I'm sure I will add some of things but for now that's the short list. Some things that you might not know.
1) I've been singing for almost 20 years
2) I'm legally blind in my left eye..contact post to come
3) I'm obsessed with fashion
4) I just quit my job
5) I taking the LSAT in June
6) I literally have a dozen lip glosses in my purses
7) don't even get me started on purses :)
8) I'm a foodie and my hips hate me for it
9) I have commitment issues
10) I'm religious

check back with me as I change my life:)

*hosting Haiti Relief Concert Sunday Feb 7, 2010
*producing a commercial for Crawford Adventist Academy

What Would Jackie Do?

For all intents and purposes this blog started off as a lifestyle blog. I wanted to showcase some of my favorite things, fashion, food and culture. This blog slowly but surely became a weight loss blog...hmmmm. I'm losing the last 20 pounds so it seemed apropos to record everything I ate..yeah I hardly do that HA! So let me get back to the original purpose of this blog...My name is McKenzie and I'm obsessed with ALL THINGS JACQUELINE BOUVIER KENNEDY ONASSIS or plainly JACKIE OOOOOOOOO. My infatuation started at a young age and I simply adore her for the obvious reasons, fashion, lifestyle and romantical interests. I also love her for being a savvy career woman, being independent and defining the art of keeping a cool upper lip. I had dramatical overtures and drama so she has always been my go-to person for grace under fire.
One of my favorite books on Mrs. K is "What Would Jackie Do?" by Shelly Branch & Sue Callaway. This book has hundreds of gems & pearls about our beloved Jacqueline and I hope to showcase one pearl a day or post. If you read my blog..clearly no one does but I have had my fair share of romantical failures *yes I know that romantical is a made up word* I actually broke up with someone this evening...I'll update on that later so I'm back in the saddle looking for my tall, dark, handsome, fabulously wealthy spouse ;).

While I wait I plan to start this new year with the year of remaking myself. I'm currently looking for a new job, a new boyfriend and new adventures. So tag along as venture to remake myself. I will still update with my food choices and I will showcase fashion that I'm totally digging right now:)

woot woot LET THE GAMES BEGIN!!!!!!!!!!

-for your reading pleasure...
Pg. 107

Male Type NO

-Men who weigh less than you do- or who have smaller feet
-Dentists from New Jersey
-Men who can't dance
-Men with a sense of entitlement
-Philanderers who make no attempt to hide their infidelity
-Pretentious playboys

Unsure

Food Stats:

10 Wings from Buffalo Wild Wing Mango Habernero/Asian Ting
1 Grapefruit
Loads of water
Cuban Blackbean Bisque
6 sweet potato circles
half of a Flat Out Wrap
small piece of Chicken
Diet Pepsi
4 cups of Green Tea Stamin by Yogi Tea
75 minutes on the treadmil
10 min Abs

It was a decent day..yeah the wings weren't the best choice but hey what's a girl to do on 50cent wing night. My really issue for blogging tonight was "the boyfriend" who I call HB who may technically be my fiancee but yeah umm whatever. Now I know its declasse to talk about money and money related things...but this shit is getting to me. I'm currently studying for my LSAT and I want to enroll into Law School this coming fall. My fiancughh (yeah I just made that up) is a social worker by trade but right now he's currently unemployed. I'm concerned that he has no plans to better himself at least in the near future> Now, I love fashion, good times and experiencing life. He speaks a good game but I'm not sure if he'll be able to support me or better yet himself. Should I stick it out or should I jet while I still have a window of opportunity. I hate feeling like I have to sacrifice and at this age..I cannot. Yes I sound selfish but I can't help it. Blah

Anyhoooo I've been catching up on "The City" love this freaking show. I mean can I move to New York and live out my fashion dreams I would love to design and sing! Both are my passions..I can relate to the Erin & Olivia situation..Erin needs to quit it and get some self-esteem I hate chicks who have such negative energy when they feel threatened by successful women. Girl STOP!

ps. maybe Olivia needs to stop Episode 18 Hit and Quit it is shedding an unflattering light on her..she needs to get to work and stop flitting around:)