What Would Jackie Do?

For all intents and purposes this blog started off as a lifestyle blog. I wanted to showcase some of my favorite things, fashion, food and culture. This blog slowly but surely became a weight loss blog...hmmmm. I'm losing the last 20 pounds so it seemed apropos to record everything I ate..yeah I hardly do that HA! So let me get back to the original purpose of this blog...My name is McKenzie and I'm obsessed with ALL THINGS JACQUELINE BOUVIER KENNEDY ONASSIS or plainly JACKIE OOOOOOOOO. My infatuation started at a young age and I simply adore her for the obvious reasons, fashion, lifestyle and romantical interests. I also love her for being a savvy career woman, being independent and defining the art of keeping a cool upper lip. I had dramatical overtures and drama so she has always been my go-to person for grace under fire.
One of my favorite books on Mrs. K is "What Would Jackie Do?" by Shelly Branch & Sue Callaway. This book has hundreds of gems & pearls about our beloved Jacqueline and I hope to showcase one pearl a day or post. If you read my blog..clearly no one does but I have had my fair share of romantical failures *yes I know that romantical is a made up word* I actually broke up with someone this evening...I'll update on that later so I'm back in the saddle looking for my tall, dark, handsome, fabulously wealthy spouse ;).

While I wait I plan to start this new year with the year of remaking myself. I'm currently looking for a new job, a new boyfriend and new adventures. So tag along as venture to remake myself. I will still update with my food choices and I will showcase fashion that I'm totally digging right now:)

woot woot LET THE GAMES BEGIN!!!!!!!!!!

-for your reading pleasure...
Pg. 107

Male Type NO

-Men who weigh less than you do- or who have smaller feet
-Dentists from New Jersey
-Men who can't dance
-Men with a sense of entitlement
-Philanderers who make no attempt to hide their infidelity
-Pretentious playboys

Unsure

Food Stats:

10 Wings from Buffalo Wild Wing Mango Habernero/Asian Ting
1 Grapefruit
Loads of water
Cuban Blackbean Bisque
6 sweet potato circles
half of a Flat Out Wrap
small piece of Chicken
Diet Pepsi
4 cups of Green Tea Stamin by Yogi Tea
75 minutes on the treadmil
10 min Abs

It was a decent day..yeah the wings weren't the best choice but hey what's a girl to do on 50cent wing night. My really issue for blogging tonight was "the boyfriend" who I call HB who may technically be my fiancee but yeah umm whatever. Now I know its declasse to talk about money and money related things...but this shit is getting to me. I'm currently studying for my LSAT and I want to enroll into Law School this coming fall. My fiancughh (yeah I just made that up) is a social worker by trade but right now he's currently unemployed. I'm concerned that he has no plans to better himself at least in the near future> Now, I love fashion, good times and experiencing life. He speaks a good game but I'm not sure if he'll be able to support me or better yet himself. Should I stick it out or should I jet while I still have a window of opportunity. I hate feeling like I have to sacrifice and at this age..I cannot. Yes I sound selfish but I can't help it. Blah

Anyhoooo I've been catching up on "The City" love this freaking show. I mean can I move to New York and live out my fashion dreams I would love to design and sing! Both are my passions..I can relate to the Erin & Olivia situation..Erin needs to quit it and get some self-esteem I hate chicks who have such negative energy when they feel threatened by successful women. Girl STOP!

ps. maybe Olivia needs to stop Episode 18 Hit and Quit it is shedding an unflattering light on her..she needs to get to work and stop flitting around:)

and the band played on..

The feasting continued late last night. I guess my body just wanted to be fed. I'm sitting in my office, reeling after a huge blow-up with my fiancee/nemesis. So instead of spending Thanksgiving with him and a friend. I'll be spending time with a long lost love who is currently depressed. I had a wonderful meal:
-WW Flat Out Wrap
=Sweet Potato
- Raw Mushrooms
-Morningstar Mushroom Burgah (I'm obsessed with this burger)
-Noosh

it was tasty I'm full and very happy. I also did an hour of walking/running around the track. I also watched a 77year old man run 10 times around the track talk about inspiration!!
I plan to hit the track early in the morning!! I really love running, it hurts but it feels great!! My friend plans to get food so hopefully I can find some veggietarian or vegan choices..I'm not really feel the meat of lately:)

Happy Thanksgiving!

eat, eat, eat and when in doubt eat

I ate all day today..these are the deets

2 handfuls of trail mix
Triscuits, hummus & pepperjack cheese
Cliff Bar with pb
Large salad with mushrooms, spinach, fotina cheese, orzo and sweet potato
Green Tea
Oatmea w/lemon cupcake crushed & almond butter
3 spoonfuls of Chobani greek yogurt w/lemon & almond butter
small piece of Pb & J Mojo Bar

should I be concerned..I guess it was unhealthy food it just felt like I couldnt get full..I'm now backtracking on my water for the day..
I also did an hour of fast paced walking while reading Twilight and listening to Diana Ross

Tomorrow I have plans with my friend to eat her family..I'm going to have to run in the morning..to offset the good food. I'm also bringing cupcakes..i'll post some pictures!

Late Night Piggy

Does anyone have any tips for late night snacking..sometimes I kill my workout progress by noshing at night:(

Being & Thinking Thin

I really believe that if you put your faith in something that eventually it will come true. I believe that I will get into law school and I believe that I will eventually fit back into my beloved size 2's. I love looking at pictures of women from the 40's & 50's. One of my favorite ladies for fashion, style and thinness is Mrs. Wallis Simpson. I love Mrs. Simpson because of the glamour, love for her man and her weight and views on it. I know that we all have different body shapes but I do believe that its important to have a role model on days where eating becomes a sport instead of used for nutrition. Mrs. Wallis famously said that you could never be too thin or too rich. View points that I agree wholeheartedly with lol. One of the tricks that she has used over the years as well as Coco Chanel is that they always say "no". I have an issue with saying "no" and I'm learning that the older I get I love the power of that two letter word. When it comes on to dessert or treats I often ask myself "do I really need this" I also conjure up a picture of thin and lovely Ms. Wallis and I remember that clothes taste better than food.

I've come a long way from eating for eating sake and I believe that friends sometimes will sabotage your weight loss goals. I have a friend who is heavy set and she of course loves to eat. I enjoy eating as well, but I love to fuel my body instead of giving it unnecessary calories and sugar. I have to stand firm and give strong No's when it comes to eating out with her, sometime she pouts but I can't get into my cherished size 4 if I'm eating fries all night. I think the only thing that I need to conquer is eating late at night. I'm a horrible sleeper so when I wake up which is often during the night I find myself starving to the death. I'm unsure of what causes my hunger, it could be sleeping with the lights on or not drinking enough water. I think sleeping with a face mask and having a cup of water by my bed will help with my nocturnal eating. If not I'm going to have to cut up fruit or veggies and leave them out for snacking. Funny if I'm sleeping with someone ie (mother! GET YOUR MIND OUT THE GUTTAH)! I don't normally eat during the night:)

For the rest of 2009 lets pratice small no's and hopefully that will translate to a wisp like waist like Sis. Wallis!

NOLA

I went to New Orleans last week and I had a MARVY time..wow what a city!! The food, the architecture, the food (lol). I'm in love. I really want to go to Law School there and make a move this coming summer. Leaving my job will be difficult but I'm ready to transition and meet some LONG overdue goals. My fiancee/boyfriend is excited and I'm a little scared of this whole "marriage" thing. Parts of me would rather just "live in sin" lol. I'm hoping that God will send me a sign in regards to this guy being "the one". I ate A LOT of good and bad food and I'm paying for it now. I have a goal of ten pounds before Christmas break so I'm cleaning up my diet majorly. Just wanted to check in..pics to come!!

its been a good weekend

I did'nt do much today or this weekend for that matter but I ate well and made some decisions about my health. I decided that I really want to stay away from meat as much as possible. I can feel the effects of it and I really feel better when I eat a more plant based diet. I'm also lacing up my running shoes for a good old run this evening. I'm going on a mini vaca on Thursday and I totally want to prepare myself for the onslaught of food. The only thing I really want to try is the beignets from Cafe du Monde..can you guess where I'm going!??!!???

I also have a confessions..I'm OBSESSED with pb puffins...that box lasted 3 days so delicious. I plan to buy some more and mix it with some Kashi Go Lean so tasty, with a dollop of pb. I'm trying to really cut the late night eating..I find if I don't have junk in room then its not a big issues. My stomach, thighs and butt are about to get a major thrashing so I'm lovely saying GOODBYE to the muffin top and looking forward to much leaner days. I know where I want to be by Christmas so I have some work to do..all in all life is good I'm focused and ready to recommit myself to my eating healthy habit!!

Breakfast:

A salad (weird huh)
green beans
lettuce
tomatoes
sweet potato
green beans
broccoli
cauliflower

Dinner:

Butternut Squash Soup w/Navy Beans
a snack sampler: Raw Mushrooms, Green Beans and nasty greasy veggie chicken
1 Roll
and a St. Croix grapefruit fizzy water drink
I'm sitting here with my boo watching him watch football and surfing the net. I hope to go to Barnes tonight for some Glama Magazine Time!! Holla BACK!!

So I went to Cantina Laredo and had a wonderful time..I ate a lot of random stuff and it was nice to be treated so well in a restaurant. Cantina Laredo is considered to be one of the nicer spots to eat in my little town. My "friend" and I aka the friendly giant went after church. We ate for free and the chef kept bringing out loads of food to the point where we had to say stop. We had sandwiches, apple pie, salads, nachos it was an all out feast. I had to drink A LOT of water and I made a cautious effort to start the week on a high note. I am totally OFF THE WAGON..but I bought a bunch of groceries and I'm on it. I bought my first honey crisp apple and I plan to sample it today, I also got some PB Puffins and SO FAR SO FREAKING GOOD! Love them little puffed treats and the puffins are pretty cute as well;) So this muffin top is still there but I'm at least acknowledging that it must be gone before December 18th. I believe 3 pounds a week are in order and LOTS OF WATER, SLEEP AND EXERCISE!!!
My dissatisfaction is all in my core..my stomach is one roly poly mess but I guess eating less carbs and cardio will help I'm just impatient ahh well back to good ole' billy for me:)



check out some pics!!

so yeah I lost my post on this evening..but this is a teaser..so stick around and I'll give you the full deets later on this evening;)

Meat Vs. Meat

ahhhh so I stopped eating meat for a 2 weeks and I was enjoying it. I started eating meat and I broke out, found myself frustrated and was just having some major stomach issues. So I guess I should lay off the beef and chicken and try enjoying some more veggies and fruit. I was totally bloated and I feel like I've gained some weight and my workouts haven't been as consistent and hard as normal. This coming Sunday I plan to write out a schedule and stick to my food plan. Less eating out and more salads, fruit and whole grains. I really want to hit a solid 6 by the second week of November and a 4 by January! I totally miss my Green Monsters and I may have to totally want to get rid of this stomach and I know I have get focused if I plan to lose it. Friends and associates will derail you with every chance they get so I have to really watch what I put in my mouth. I also have to up the workouts a this week..I said it last week but clearly that didn't happen ha! Oh well I need to lose the hip and stomach and I'm going to DO IT!!

yesterday I ate:
-3 Reece pieces mini chocolates
-4 ribs
-roll
-watermelon
-Cliff Bar
-Triscuts 1 serving
-3 litres of water
2 cups of Green Tea
7 jalapeno chips

WHAT KIND OF FACKING FOOD JOURNAL ENTRY is THIS!! hahahaha

ahhh Supper Club

So again another week of eating HAWT CRAP! here follows a run down of my food..

I had a gyro which was pretty good with my new intended
I had a chicken biscuit and 2 eggs at Wild Rose Cafe and it was freaking delicious!!
I had 2 Chai Lattes from Angel's Cafe THE BEST CHAI I HAVE EVER HAD
I had a crazy good dinner at Catina Laredo..I had 2 chicken enchiladas with some rice and green beans TOTALLY GOOD..but the best part about it is the Apple Pie with cinnamon ice cream and HOT FREAKING BRANDY BUTTAH..lord have mercy it was soooo good..,,then yesterday I had a huge burger..this had been a BAD WEEK but I did have some veggies for Sabbath dinner and that was a first. I think I've been eating out way too much and now that a certain friend is gone I will be do much better..I'm sure I have no lost any weight this week and I'm resisting the temptation to actually weigh myself. I do have a PRAISE REPORT..my size 4 long and lean jeans from the GAP..my go to for weight loss and it fits over my bum. It can't button mind you but its all core issues my stomach which is always the last thing to is laughing at me. I think I have to do more veggies, no meat, and 2 sessions of cardio a day..Ahh weight loss journey. I also have to up the water and just get back to my old self and buy some groceries!!

EMO

Yesterday and today were rocky days..gee Louise.
-So I'm totally blind I have a degenerative eye disease called Keratoconus and its slowly ruining my vision. I found out today that my vision has gotten worse and that this disease will literally send me to the poor house. When I think of my bills I automatically think about marrying Akeem and saying "Fack It".
- I totally hate my job and I'm tired of not getting paid..long story too sad to recount.
-I am falling out of love with "Old Man River" so quickly its shocking to me
-I'm signing up for boxing classes
-I miss my blender very much and Green Monsters
-I miss my mother terribly and I want to go home
-I cannot wait to be a solid size 4 again, I'm enjoying my workouts and running every night esp. while listening to "Thriller"
-this guy who frequents my office likes me
-he's HUGE lol
-I need to find a second job and maybe even a third
-I want to move to California
-I hope God sends me some mayjah signs soon I'm getting quite restless

Shape Up

I've kind of fallen off the wagon..I did mention that in my last post. I looked over my diet and I have been eating some ish that is totally out of control and not in my plan. I do commend myself for at least realizing that I'm eating junk and making a concerted effort to stop. I believe that once you start eating junk food you start to crave it and of lately I've been craving it badly. I do believe part of this has to do with my cycle but I think in lieu of my personal life eating crap has just made me feel plain good. I tend to stress eat so I have to be very careful of what I eat and my portions. I also find that my sleeping habits are out of wack again so I have to be more diligent in making sure I'm actually laying down by 11:30 no later than 1am.

So yesterday my meals included

Green Tea
5 spoonfuls of Oatmeal

Jason's Deli Bird to the Wise/ SO FATTENING but tasty. I ate the sandwich in two parts..and I also had a bag of chips and a serving of steamed veggies. I plan to buy some groceries today because I've been eating out like crazy and I rather be in control of what I eat. I also had about 7 peanut-butter saltine sandwiches and some jolly ranchers and peach tea..

so yeah I need to quit and start eating much cleaner. Fruits & Veggies minimize the carbs.

I'm still working out I wish my thighs and stomach would get smaller I feel so hippy but I know I can lose the weight I just have to watch my intake and try walking a few times a night.
Today is a busy day so off I go..wish me luck with my meals and my overall health:)

Jacqueline

I'm currently reading "All to Human" by Edward Klein.

I bought 2 other books..an autobiography on Edward Moore Kennedy and a book called Life after Jack...

yes I'm a KENNEDY stan.. and I hope to write a book about Jackie and the 3 Kennedy boys one day:)

ps. I also got a copy of Death of a President which is no longer published so yes I AM SO HAPPY!!!

on to my eating which has literally been out of control for the last few days

Friday

Oatmeal w/almond buttah and crushed Cliff Bar

Oatmeal Cream Pie

1 triangle of a quesidilla

Chicken Tortilla Soup

1 order of Parmasean Garlic Fries

1 bag of smartfood popcorn

half a Cliffbar

1 nectarine

Rice Dream Vanilla Bar

UMMM I NEED TO SLOW MY ROLL

Saturday

Lunch: Navy Beans, Spinach, Salmon, 4 cheese rice, orange pepper, carrots and hummus & Rice Dream Vanilla Bar

Dinner: Amy's Organic Burrito with Cheddar Cheese, Brussell Sprouts & Navy Beans, Snickers Bar, Fridays Buffalo Sticks

this is not good I'm eating a lot of ish and I need to quit..I believe this calls for a two workout a day week..argghhh oh well I have 20 more pounds to go they aint coming off like this..gotta keep focused...oh I drank loads of water and some gingerale..bah!

M.I.A

I know no one reads this but I will say on my part that I need to do better and blog for my satisfaction and to keep track of the things that I digest. I have been living a pretty clean life and eating good and balanced meals for the last few weeks. One thing about eating healthy is that I find myself in the grocery store more often and I also find myself spending a lot of moolah. Its coo though (haha) I have one body and it deserves the best. One thing that I found funny is that because I am taking the time to eat better and think about myself more the people around me who should be hppy aren't. I notice that students are little more curt with me , my ex-boyfriend no longer compliments me and that I get evil eyes when I'm on the elliptical. Its fine...I just forgot how it used to be when I was slimmer. I think I'm about 15 pounds from being where I first started off and another 7 pounds from being my former size 2-4. I am excited to get back into all my old clothes and I find it fun to "ship my closet" as I find outfits that I used to wear as far as 7 years ago.

It's still shocking to me that I got so far out of control My weight loss goals will net me at a 70 pounds weight loss and even typing that makes me wince. I can never put myself secondary or last again. I'm in a weird transitioning place where I'm beginning to question everything and everyone. I now know that my job is temporary and that at my age I need to make some quick decisions or I will be at a total dead-end job with no money and prospects. I have picked up the LSAT for the 100th time and I'm finally studying...though challenging I am committed to finally taking the test this February and applying to Law School. It will be tough my GPA is not what it should be and I have to do really well on the test but I have told the desires of my heart to the Lord so I know that HE will make a way for me. I am also debating Graduate School for the fall so I have a lot of stuff on my plate. Relationship wise...my relationship of the last two years is at a dead-end. I find myself not caring or missing him at all. This past Sunday nipped it in the bud for me as we shared an unfortunate kiss and now I know there is no need for us to go any further than we are. I'm pretty much done and I have to get to the point where I live independently no matter how lonely I get. As for my past relationship....what a waste of time. That trip and person is SOOOO OVER I cannot even explain it nor do I have the energy to do so. I think past mistakes withstanding I will always feel a sense of responsibility when I think of him...but my self-esteem and heart cannot take any more disappointments and any decisions I have made I did them for a reason because I simply did not love him enough.

Sad huh..but its cool for the first time in a long time I'm not intrested in anyone and no one is interested in me:) Which is fine in some respects in others its shocking to the system. I have a hard time listening or trusting anyone who didn't like me when I was heavier. I was teh same person, I laughed the same, I cried the same I liked the same thing but because I had a weight issue all of a sudden I wasn't worthy anymore. That is why my weight loss is two-fold for me...one part of me is doing it for myself and another is doing it to prove a point. I haven't always been treated well by the people who claim to love, and I also have not always treated the people that I love well either. This is a new day of loving myself and returning to my pre-2006 days..if you want to come along with me on the journey then LET's GO!!! if not thank you kindly and step aside.


So let's do a bucket List for September-December

1) Lose the rest of the weight 20 pds by the beginning of November
2) Find a nice young chap to spend some time with
3) Finish all outstanding courses
4) Run 3miles without stopping
5) Find an alternate way of making money
6) Pay off all bills
7)Study 5 hours a day on the LSAT
8) Find new friends
9) Join a singing group/choir


wish me luck and I pray that you find peace in whatever you do or aspire to do

ahhh I didn't mention food at all (hahaha)

Today I had a GM with Spinach, Almond Butter, Almond Milk, one scoop of Slim Fast Chocolate Shake
7 bites of Pasta Salad
1 medium Coffee (2 sugars, 2-3 creams)
3/4 of a chocolate muffin
1 liter of water

Dinner better include...some meat, salad and hummus WOOT!

yeah..so if Regions would hurry up and send me my NEW bank card..I could indulge myself myself and buy these ridiculously hot shoes!!! I am in love with them, my Mum has a pair (my Mum is crazy stylish more on her later) Anyways they are dirt cheap at $125 plus 30% off..come on REGIONS I need to rock these shoes before it gets too cold.

On the food front, I totally want these last 15 pounds off my body, so I may have to up the exercise, but this cold is whopping my tail all I want to do is gym work and no running..ahhh well. I just have to watch the carbs and be diligent:)
Happy Sunday!

Too much CHEWING

Sorry I haven't updated...I got a cold and I was pretty much down for the rest of the week. I did eat pretty well when I had an appetite. I'm having a hard time waking up in the morning and find myself wanting to sleep till 10. Which leaves time for a workout and then it seems as if the day goes by so quickly. My relationship is totally on the fritz and I kind of don't care. I'm so over it. I have no energy and I will not waste another year loving someone who doesn't love me back. I was thinking about a particular guy last night and I hope he's not the love of my life. That would be very difficult to swallow. LOL..I mean we love hard but we also hate hard so we shall see.
For breakfast I had a Kashi Very Vanilla Oatmeal with some blueberries and Almond Buttah...it was good. I'm not sure how I feel about this Oatmeal too much chewing in my opinion. I also had some Arnold pre-sliced sandwhich breads..THERE IS A GOD!!! that bread is SO GOOD and for the price I can dig it. It was delish and I had it with some cucumbers, hummus, spinach and some roast chicken..divine.. I find I haven't been snacking late at night which is a blessing, cause that's how I put the weight on in the first place. I made a bet with my Mum, if I see her in November and I weight under 130 she will buy me a pair of Louboutins!! WOOT WOOT Opie is good for her word..if I lose that much weight I think my weight loss will be around 70 pounds..man alive. I WAS HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGE

I must say I'm quite pleased that I'm wearing a size 4 Club Monaco skirt, it has stretch but it's not tight or riding up. I really want to get back into my pre-weight college clothes so I gotta stay consistent..I won't be satisfied with a lazy 6..(shaking head) Anywho..I'm off to do some more work and I hope to watch a movie by myself if need be today..either Julie/Julia or The Time Traveller's Wife:)

HOLLA BACK!

Goodafternoon..sneeze, cough, choo

Yuck I feel gross today..not sure what the problem is but since I've come back to daVille I've been battling a nasty cough. I popped some vitamin C this morning and ate a big 'ole orange so hopefully that will give my body the vitamins that it needs. I woke up super late this morning because I was fussing with Mr.Old till 5am. Ohhhhh I was hot and upset and I really believe that talking to people late at night is a bad idea. So now I feel even feel worse:( I eventually got up and pulled on my running clothes and headed out. It was a bit too hot for me..so I snuck into the gym to pound it out on the treadmill. I did 60 minutes and ran for about 7 minutes every 15 minutes. My song of choice was "Wanna Be Starting Something" I can run the distance listening to that song..something about the horns, and hee-hee's make me smile and just get crazy. After 60 minutes I did 130 bicycle crunches and this Jillian Micheals move that only can be described as torture. I felt it good and I hope my core was engaged because my focus is getting my stomach as flat as possible.

I read some blogs and caught up on some emails and proceeded to lunch.
I had a w/w pita with pine roasted hummus, pico gallo, spinach and the last of my lemon pepper chicken. I also had some carrots and Stacy's Parmesan and Garlic Chips with some more hummus..it was GOOD. I think I might get these instead of Triscuits. I plan to drink a Green Monster for dinner or have a salad whateva floats my boat I guess...on to drink some water so I can knock this cold out the park:)
Toodles!!

The End

of our relationship:) So I went to church with fuddie duddie and it was cold and stale as I expected it would be. He did not ask me about where I was eating lunch nor did he invite me over to share a meal with him. So I came home and made myself a pretty good lunch and surfed the nap and fell asleep a few times.
For lunch I had:

w/w pita stuffed with
spinach
pica gallo
mushroom griller
chicken
pine nut hummus

It rocked my socks..I also had a few more pieces of chicken and I nibbled on a some Triscuit Parm/Garlic crackers. I found myself snackish at around 5 so I cracked up a Clif Bar. I pretty much adore the peanut/chocolate chip flavor. Its heavenly and I finished most of it.
I plan to take a little walk to think and decompress then I will hang out for the rest of the night. Being single will take some getting used to but I believe that its best for me at this time. I don't miss him as much as I thought I would, but I do miss the company if that makes any sense.
I plan this week to really not speak to him unless I am asking for the car. There is no need for silly conversation...I made a decision and I need to stick to it. It will be tough seeing him day to day but I'm a grown up I can handle it:)



ohhhhh flames...for breakfast I had some Kashi Sunshine Power thingamagigey with blueberries and almond milk. I find myself falling into the old habit of eating at night. I need to curb that with water but sometimes I just want to munch:) any suggestions?

Saying NO to temptation

No I'm not speaking about boys....but food temptations. I have portion control issues especially at night with my favorite snack foods. For example I love yogurt covered raisins. I will eat the whole bag though and I love these new Alexa Waffle Chip things..but with 8 being 140 I just can't seem to control myself. I guess I should just not buy them but that would be giving into my need to gobble everything up. I'm also horrible with eating at night that's something I have to control as well. Maybe give myself a sticker for everytime I make it through the night without a sticker. 7 stickers equal a treat on Monday. Maybe I'll try that:)

Anyways...for brekkie I had some Oatmeal from the Campus Market. This oatmeal will make you stomp in an elderly woman's face...its so freaking good..I should rename it "Crackmeal". I had some of that with blueberries, grape jelly and Peanut Butter..so tasty... I haven't finished it but I plan to reheat it in the morning if don't. I didn't work out this morning, I woke up with the worse sore throat and I actually coughed up phlegm and blood..very scary. I gargled with some hot water and salt and that seemed to do the trick.
I hope to do some Tae-Bo or Jilian this afternoon, after I hit up the bank and Island Jerk. Other than that it's a very peaceful day at the dorm and life is good. I miss my mum and home something serious and I really feel like going shopping today.
Alright HOLLA BACK for more food and jokes.
*side note* My Lululemon frigging MORTGAGE PANTS are so ripped up. I'm super pissed I'm not sure what happened to it. I'm going to try to sew them up but I think they may be ruined.
I'm also buying a revenge IPOD TOUCH:)

I'm BACK!

Yeah I'm back in the states....at first I wasn't feeling it but I am now. I kind of left off with my NYC trip..so let me update you on what's going on.
It was wonderful, I had fun even though I didnt do anything. It was nice to see th elove of my life again and though we didnt discuss what the next step will be, we did dicuss that we would like to share our lives together at some point. I feel so much better and happier that we have met up and I really hope that we work stuff out.

Now that I am back in Huntsville, I hope that we can see each other again and I hope that we really find ways to make each other feel special. I might send him some cupcakes soon or maybe a card. Yeah yeah a card, I can send him a Thank You card:)
I have no choice but to keep my healthy lifestyle up while I am here.
So I'm running every day and doing a work out video at night. My rest day and fun eating day will be Saturday. I have to study and plan for next semester now. I am actually starving right to tell you the truth....I hope to run to Walmart sooner than later but it looks like I will have to wait until after this meeting which I hope won't be that long.
I really want to just sit down with some triscuits with hummus and go to freaking town..hahahaha.
My run was pretty good and I just came into some money so I plan to invest my own IPOD. I also want to get the Nike Fit so I can track how much I run and the distance/miles. I want fitness to be a part of my life, I also plan to check out some classes at the nearest gym to me so that I can take classes whenever I want. My hips, stomach and bum are still not what I would like them to me so I plan to keep working them off.

I'm also doing a HUGE walmart shop after this meeting, I need a lot of stuff house/fridge..then I plan to run up some hills or do some jillian whatever strikes my fancy first.

Alright for the day I have had..I really need to get some pictures up.
-Tomato & Basil Soup
-1 90 calorie Special K bar
-1 litre of water

I'm about to eat either some hummus and triscuits for dinner..or make a green leafy salad. I would go right to Jason's Deli and get a sandwhich but I would rather wait till Friday to splurge on some West Indian Food and my nails, which look like a dig graves for a living lol

Holla back!

New Yawk

I'm here we have not discussed the future of how we feel about each other. He did mention that I've been his wife since 2004, but he said that while licking my ear so I'm not sure if that really counts. I am very proud to say that I was a good Christian girl and I leave with no regrets. I do have some regrets that I haven't done any shopping whatsoever and that doesn't sit too well with this chica. My diet has been pretty OK, well let me take that back I haven't had any fruit or anything all week..that's not good.. He didn't buy any groceries and quite frankly I don't think he prepared for my arrival at all. I'm not more sure of how I feel about him, but I do know that we can be civil together and I'm very happy about that. Will I see him again??? I'm not sure but I know God has a plan for me so I'm not too worried about it,

Ahhhh why did I waste 3 years of my life wondering about this guy and how he felt...meh. Well I leave on Monday and I'm not bringing up relationships or feelings or anything for that matter. Hopefully we go to church tomorrow I really need some Jesus love right now the best boyfriend a girl can ever have. I haven't been out of the apt since I got here, well once and I'm really jonesing for some coffee and some mag reading and maybe a salad..ahhh how I miss my food. I have worked out everyday which was good and I don't feel any bigger though I am totally ramping up my workout when I get home I'm tired of all this stomach, ass and hips lol.

I did find out two things on this trip..

1) I love DOGS!!! Well I love this dog named Dexter who is the exes dog and he is so darling and now I want a dog of my own.

2) I found some Santa Clause Lingerie in one of my exes cupboards.....(hmmmm) should I be concerned..

well toodles...I'm totally NOT looking forward to going back to OU..I've had enough:(

ahhhh

I'm sitting here with tummy cramps feeling pretty yucky and gross..I'm not sure what's going on but I literally ate everything in my house last night. It could be a case of nerves..or my cycle..I'm hoping its nerves:) So this is what I devoured between 12-5am

half a Fat burning protein bar
16 Quaker Oatmeal Squares with Almond Milk
Handful of Curry Chips


Writing that down that doesn't seem to bad...hmmm
For Dinner last night I had... a small portion of green beans, a serving of Sweet Potato Chunks, 2 California Rolls, 4 tiny piece of Oxtail, Some Veggie Meat it was tasty..but I had dinner at 11..maybe I should try eating before my nightly run so I'm not that hungry..:)

I guess I'm just feeling overwhelmed not feeling skinny enough, or cute enough or whatever enough and I just want him to love me..I need to drink some tea and woo-saaaaaa

ahhh hard work pays off..

So I fell asleep with the guy I currently love and I woke up literally dazed and confused. I wanted to lay down and just sleep but once I'm up this chickadee can't go back to bed. So...I went downstairs and washed some dishes and made myself a GREEN MONSTER...it was of course fricking delicious. My Green Monster contained..a handful of spinach, half a banana, some Slim Fast Vanilla Powder Shake stuff and two strawberries...oh yeah a stalk of celery. For some reason it took me forever to finish that shake. I believe its nerves..on Friday I go off to meet my ex who I havent seen in 3 years or so. I just feel fat and gross but I know that's not true and I just hope it goes more than well and we get married sometime during the week...hahaha..not really:)

At around 1:00 pm I gave Jillian a dirty look and got to it...dang that Jillian man she kicks my ass EVERY single workout. I mean I thought that I used to sweat with Billy but geeeez her workouts are pretty crazy!! I had sweat running down my face in my mouth (supergross) but hey I guess you can't lose weight without getting dirty. My wish would be to lose another 4 pounds before I go to NYC..not sure if that can happen but I'm going to work out like crazy and hope that i do some major damage in the stomach and butt area.

After my workout from hell, I finished the other half of my GREEN MONSTER and got dressed so that I could take in my dry cleaning. I did that and went to Shopper's (my obsession) and bought some more curry chips and a Coffee Crisp...don't ask me why I bought a chocolate bar I just needed something sweet...its the nerves I tell ya..
So I decided to make some Guac to go with my Curry Chips...I used a baby avocado, some yellow pepper and a tomato on its last leg with some sweet and spicy sauce from President's Choice...HOLY CRAP IT WAS GOOD..it was enough to keep me full..oh add in half a Coffee Crisp and another handful of chips. So yummy..

I'm just chilling right now, drinking water and listening to Maxwell..for dinner I'm planning on making sweet potato chips and eating the rest of my Mama's California Rolls..but before I eat I plan to go on a long run...and I'm so proud that I've been running it under 1 hour:)

That's it for now...
Current Obsessions: Lululemon and "Bad Habits" by Maxwell!!!
WHERE HAS LULULEMON BEEN ALL MY LIFE!!!!

hellllo

Hello!



So my detox/diet hit a small sag yesterday. I went shopping with my favorite cousin, Simone and I bought some yogurt covered raisins:) BIG MISTAKE I almost ate the whole container and I was eating them all through the night..I may have to run to undo the MAJOR Drama..but I did pick up some Almond Breeze for the first time.....WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ALL MY LIFE!!!! So good and tasty it's totally kicking Soy's ass right now. I had a small bowl with Oatmeal Quaker Squares SO TASTY.


Dinner:

Chicken w/sweet potato fries and avocado
medium portion of baby new potatoes

Breakfast: Green Monster w/cherries
3 cups of Green Tea
Lots o'water
HANDFULS of yogurt covered raisins


Now I feel a a bit bloated...I think I have to run and do some tae bo today to offset this splurge WAHHHH

Toodles!

Hello From Canada!

Ahhh I love being home, I wish I could stay. Well my full time job is to workout as my loving mother reminds me everday, so far so good.
I totally have to ramp it up as I'm seeing my ex-boyfriend in less than two weeks. (Old Man out Young Man in) lol. So I'm doing a mini detox and I'll be writing down everything I've ate starting today.

Breakfast

Small bowl of Oatmeal Sqaures & 2% milk (ran out of soy)
handful of grapes

Pre-workout Snack

half a Jamaican Patty

I'm so tired I can't believe I kicked so many times snack (lol)

Green Monster which included:
2 stalks of celery
handful of spinach
Mango juice
half an apple
it tastes very intresting (huge smile)

and the rest of my Jamaican Patti

I really want some chicken for dinner tonight and I don't want to cook it..lets' see if I can convince my Mum to take me to Swiss Chalet:)

oh yes, I'm also working out 3 times a day.
Tae Bo at noon
Jillian at 6
Long-ass walk at 10

hmmm

So my mother has a boyfriend..or male friend. I'm trying to be positive and like him but I don't. Or maybe I don't like who she becomes around him, very forgetful and dismissive. I am ready for him to take his exit. I could be "hating" because my relationship is slowly falling apart. This ex-boyfriend of mine is reminding me why he's my ex!! So annoying, planning a simple trip is more trouble than its worth and I just want to blow the whole thing up. I constantly call him, but he never calls me back..childish and immature I tell you.

The weight loss has been good so far, I've been working out and eating well and I have two events coming up this week so I'm hoping to lose 3-4 pounds this week. I think I can do it. I'm doing tae bo in the morning or mid afternoon and running at night. The running has really helped so has eating balanced meals and my stomach condition has stopped as well. Just checking in, not sure if anyone is reading this but its nice to vent on here:)

sad sad SAD

i am wearing a size ten dress that I had to let out to the wedding..depression isnt the word..

I am fat with eye issues

It seems like this blog is turning into a weight blog..not my initial plan but my weight is my major struggle. Sometimes I feel like I can put on ten pounds in a matter of hours. I often wonder if I have a thyroid problem and why its taking so long for the weight to come off. Today is not a good day but I will hold my head up and keep moving forward. I am drinking a slim fast shake for breakfast and I just had my 2ND cup of Green Acai tea. I'm at the place in my tea ministry LOL that I can drink it without any sugar or milk. WOOOO that's a biggie. I plan to work out today..to be honest I haven't worked out since Wednesday after the dress fiasco I've kind of lost interest in sweating..but I have kept to my diet. My eyes are killing me..I'm not sure if I've mentioned that I have Kerotacuonus..major eye disease..so double vision is a biggie in my world..since I've lost my right contact (to be honest I never wear them) my left eye has been tearing up and just aggravating me..ARRGGGHHH I'm not having a good week and I have a sneaking suspicion that my period is about to start. Oh well..if anyone has any tips for losing 20 pounds in week hit me up in the comments LOL...no seriously hit me up!!

Sometimes I wonder if God is punishing me from having the body I want..I know that's crazy but sometimes I wonder:(
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I decided NOT to work

I know I am in need of money..but I'm also in need of peace. Which I think outweighs money any day. I have a lot of work to do, getting my classes in and packing and organzing so I don't have time to be strapped to the dorm. Quite frankly I don't want to work with these two ladies either. I don't hate them but I cannot allow my blood pressure to raise because of them. I am hoping that t he next week goes by quickly and that I'm in the safe and capable arms of my mother. I totally lied to her about the dress but I'm hoping on Saturday I can go and get it looked at. I have no transportation right now and begging people isn't my style. So that's what's up right now.
I also made this "interesting drink" for breakfast.

Ingredients

3 leaves Kale
2 strawberries
Soy Vanilla Milk
a shake of Slim Fast Chocolate powder
and water/ice cube
half a banana

At first without the banana it was gag worthy now its tasty. I'm almost done and i feel "clean". This road to health is going along swimmingly and I wish I had started sooner.
Well I'm going to patiently wait on my mama so she can give me her visa so I can order these classes..
I'll be back ( how Terminator of me) lol

not super fat fat just fat!

So the dress does not fit...Lord have mercy..I'm planning to bring "the dress" to Modern Bride so hopefully they can pull some fabric out so I'm praying that goes well. I also have a work conference coming up so I'll be in Michigan for most of next week. I also have a lot of school work to catch up on..thinking about it makes me sweat. I'm still keeping a polite distance at work and just trying to get out of here the fastest I can. I think being away for a few months will really help and just give me some much needed time to relax.

My Boo is gone!!! He drove up to Chicago for his son's graduation. He did not ask me to come at all. I don't think I'm good enough for his family. I'm not shocked at all and mind you he took my car out there, but hey you do what you gotta do. I'm sure the relationship is ending soon so there is NO NEED to fret the small stuff. I was wondering..is anyone reading this...I don't see a section for comments so if someone is reading this..can you email me at blazin73@hotmail.com and let me know if you can comment. I would really appreciate it. Man I'm hoping I can lose another 6 pounds by this wedding..but I don't know. My eating has been pretty good..I'm slightly obsessed with Navy Beans and Spinach I've been eating that all day. I just had a sandwich actually.
That's all I got!
HOLLA!!!

You can keep your FRUIT!

I think I can finally speak clearly and with some thought about my work drama.

I work in a place with a few hundred women. I am single and my achilles heel is always that I'm single meaning that i'm screwing everything in sight. Well I was accused of doing something less than Godly and my boss spoke to my boyfriend about it. Now on a normal day that's fine but I think her attitude and opinion on the whole situation is crazy. First of all students lie..a lot especially when the are reprimanded by an adult. Now I've been accused of having my boyfriend stay where I live. Now this student and I have not been seeing eye to for the last few days and that's fine because I do not count my students as friends..its actually quite dangerous to do that.

I do have a problem with the way my boss handled it. I think there are better ways at handling "he said she said situations".. First of all I have the right to meet and discuss the situation with my accuser. And I don't need her to defend me or plead my case, because I really believe that you have to stick up for yourself and make an example out of one person. I'm not sure how its even plausible to take a students side without seeing my side or asking me about it or better yet..doing what's biblically right and letting me speak to the person.

I just received an email from her asking to meet at ten. I'm sure that she wants to rehash the whole situation and a part of me wants to be upset and rant but another part of me believes that I have to be quiet and just be humble about the whole situation. I am not new to rumors and I think when you get in a huff you allow others to think that there might be truth to the rumor. As for my boyfriend I am not sure what do with him, because I think his loyalty is very conflicted (he told my boss about my birthday and about me going to my university appointment that went very well) I said to him, why would you do that..did I ask you to say something..his thought on it is that you used to be friends so what's the big deal. Well the big deal OLD ASS is that I don't want you to spread my business to every and anyone wether they were my friends or not.

So anyways I do know this..I love my job and I work very had at making good decisions everyday. I'm not perfect but I take my job seriously I want to continue working at my job but I want to be in a place where I am respected and that people believe the things that I say.

I'm not sure if I look that much in heat to make such a stupid decision like having my boyfriend stay over. Alas, it is very important that I keep my head up and do the very best and right things no matter how hurt I am or upset. I have stayed away from my job ( I don't work summers) and it feels good not to have that sort of responsibilty.

I know I did the wrong thing in terms of this..my boss gave me a fruit basket and I tossed it on the ground. I plan to throw it away..because really I don't want anything from her..don't respect me don't give me fruit. I know it might be childish but that's how I feel right now. I just think its a little to late and I also think that my relationship is not what it should or will ever be. I'm going to try and ignore my boyfriend for awhile, kind of do me. I'm tired of fighting this fight and plus I should be dating someone who has like goals and aims.

So that's what going on in my life..work is tense and so is my relationship..I do feel happy though because when God gives you trials you just have to do the best to plug on and trust that he is holding your hand.

See Ya
Yolande

&*^(_@*$&)(@_#($*_#

I am having a horrible day at work..I know God has my hand..but boy oh boy today was rough. I cried 3 times, yelled and swore. I choose to be rational and polite and not act in a way people expect. If you pray..please pray that I do the right thing!


p.s I'm listening to Stevie Wonder "Do I Do" I feel a bit better and I watched the foolish movie "Dance Flick" it was hilarious..stupid funny. I needed that tonight:)

I love Anthro & Papasan Chairs!

So I had a wonderful day.. I did some "light shopping" yeah right!! (ha) and I dropped some moola at Anthro..I wanted to pick some stuff up at Jcrew..but I really didn't see anything that said purchase me. There is a store at my local mall that has such cool stuff. I totally plan to start shopping there as soon as I lose a little more weight:)..So I bought two tops, a scarf, a funky headband and some lip gloss. Since I celebrate my birthday all week I plan to shop a lot more this week. I got a really cool gift for my bday. I GOT A PAPASAN CHAIR!!! My boyfriend is really good at buying me gifts that I talk about randomly. He has bought me things like clutches, CD player from Brookstone and now this..I am so grateful for him..he can me great when he wants to. He also took me to Phuket for dinner and I had the BBQ Thai Chicken...have mercy it was divine. We sat outside and chilled. Good times I say..We got back just in time for his game and now I'm just relaxing. I hope to do my nails tomorrow and just do some more shopping. I also have a business trip coming up and of course my 21 day detox with officially starts tomorrow..I know this is going to be tough..but again if anyone wants to join me..please let me know:)

I also have an appointment with the Chair of the History department at the local university where I live. Please pray that all goes well. I feel great this birthday. Last year I was pretty down and sad but now I feel like its time for a new beginning and I'm feeling quite blessed.
OF COURSE I have to end this with some drama... my ex just called me..I tried it back to no avail..I'm sure he's calling to say Happy Birthday and move to NYC and be my wife:)

Goodnight!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

It's my BIRTHDAY today WOOT WOOT WOOT!!! In honor of this day let's gaze upon my personal icon..Mrs. Jacqueline Bouvier Kennedy Onassis..ahh what a breath of fresh air and look at her teeny tiny waist..(pass the slimfast)

and...I kind of fit into my Club Monaco dress today..I am very happy..for the next 21 days..I am just eating fruit and vegetables..NO CARBS...NO MEAT...NO JUNK!!!...who wants to joing me???

plus i'll be working out for the next 21 days twice a day..My goal is to drop 10 pounds..WOOT!

I just added this picture because I love what she's wearing..and in some ways she has the "Jackie O vibe"..

Jillian Michaels

Hi Everyone..

Jillian Micheal's is literally kicking my ASS! My LORD that lady is tough. I'm totally enjoying her workout which promises to make you lose 5 pounds in one week. I'm not sure if that's true, but I am in pain and my core is killing me. The workouts are broken into 6 sessions and each session is challenging and difficult. Well let me take that back, they aren't difficult but if if you are look for a cute workout..please do not buy this DVD. One thing that she says many times during the video is "DO NOT PHONE IT IN"..whenever she says that I laugh, because many times we don't accomplish our goals because we simply "phone it in". It took me awhile to get to the point where I know that my body and mind realize that I cannot eat wings every night. I used to be quite vain about my body and for a long time I had one of the best bodies in my inner circle. I didn't eat junk and when I did, I had to my fill and moved on. The last few months I have become obsessed with food. I'll be eating breakfast and wondering what's for lunch lol.


Well, I'm doing much better..I do have moments where I want a huge burger but normally I can control my cravings and just eat something healthy. I do still have a problem with eating at night. For some reason around 3 am I get very hungry..I always say that I'm going to drink some water..but normally I reach for the nearest thing around me. I also believe that having one cheat day is very important. I normally use Saturday as that day, and since my boyfriend is vegetarian I normally eat much less meat than before.
This is becoming a diet blog..not sure if I like it..but ahhh well

Yesterday I took my much older man friend to Macaroni Grill for dinner. I had the Chianti Steak and let me TELL YOU SOMETHING..it was great! It was nice to sit back and celebrate his birthday..he turned a WHOPPING 48 yesterday and my birthday is next week..I still have to get him something but I'm not sure what?????? But on to better things....what do I want for my birthday..

My treat to myself is..

La Mer face cream:

Why didn't I get MARRIED

Wooooo this is doozy. I was on the phone with my mother a few hours a go talking about relationships and my lack of a stable one. I am dating someone but its anything but stable and I am completely aware of this. I decided to walk timidly down memory lane to "visit" some of the men that I've dated. Now I believe in putting God in the middle of your relationships... with many of them I didn't because I don't think a lot of them deserved to meet God...lol..funny yet very true. I do think I date the same sort of person...the guy who comes at you very fast but has no staying power. The guy who promises you loads of things but cannot follow through. As for me..I know I'm a difficult person to date. I can be very opinionated and strong-willed but I wonder if any of these guys had any real intentions towards me. This isn't a sad post about unrequited love..because I totally believe that "everything happens for a reason".....

I know one thing, that I do expect the best from whomever I date..and I will quickly cut the relationship off the person becomes selfish or mean. The relationship I'm now in is going nowhere fast but there is a "sweet relief" to that. I'm not one to make unrealistic goals..so I haven't stated what I want or need from this relationship.. I do feel myself being drawn to someone, I think I may have pushed them away. I pray that this is not the case, because he's one of those guys you could totally marry and be happy forever with. I went as far as to delete him off Facebook..WHY DID I DO THAT!! I can tell you why my friends..I was on my frigging period and literally a raging lunatic...anyways..Have any of you ever liked two people at the same time. Should I leave this guy alone and just focus on my relationship with my "boyfriend"..let me know....

Cheers!

Here I am the desk typing away to myself (lol) but let the show go on...

Lots of things are happening right now and I'm preparing for some big changes over the next few months. I sometimes have issues with following through and this year I cannot afford it. I have a birthday coming up and I'm pretty OK with it. I know my gift to myself will be going to grad school and eventually becoming a fit and healthy girl. My weight loss week with my mother here was a hard week for me. I ate everything I had been craving for the last few months..but it was good now I'm over it and I'm eating healthy again. I bought a Jillian Michael's video and its literally kicking my tail..but its good to shake it up sometimes I still have a lot of butt, thighs and stomach to get rid of.

Nothing new on the relationship front..I'm still just doing what I normally do just floating around. School will begin to kick my tail very soon but its good to kind of have a distraction. Things at work are all right, I would love to make a change but right now my options are very limited and I know I just have to hang in there and do what has to be done.

I have a few trips coming up this summer so I'm looking forward to it and just having fun. My boo's bday is coming up in a few weeks...48 WOWZA who would have thought it:0...so I need to get him something for William Sonoma with the quickness...

I'll check in later back to watching BIGGEST LOSER, drinking water and plotting my escape to Walmart to pick up some chicken and veggies...

see ya

Ok so life is good..except that I might be falling in love with someone who is NOT my boyfriend. Ahh the drama!!! This was totally unexpected but he gives me love cramps and I quite enjoy it. I'm not sure what do with this and since I am in a relationship its turns a simple situation quite complex. I know that cheating is totally out of the question, I still find myself wishing I could hold his hand.
On the weight loss front, things are going slowly but I am making food choices..I didn't work out on Wed or Thurs but I ate well so I'm hoping that everything will be OK. I have less than 6 weeks to do some major damage I'm hoping for 2-3 pds per week. I plan to eat very clean and healthy and drink tons of water. I'm still quite thick though...can a girl get at least a size 6. I'm tired of my chubby face.
I have no plans for this weekend except to work out and clean my apt. My mother is coming by to visit me on the 4th, so I'm totally excited and anxious at the same time. She drives me crazy in a very good way lol. Well I'm waiting for girl I'm paying fifty bucks to get her tail back to head and finish up. The dorm is almost empty and for that my friends I am TOTALLY excited!!! Ahhh my vacation is sooner than I thought and I can't wait to veg out and just do me. Anyways if you are reading this please leave me a comment let me know you exists..a girl could use some bloggie friends:)

g'day!

Yippeee

I am doing much better... I'm trying the new Body by Glamour and incoporating much more salads into my diet. Also working out twice a day has turned from a chore to an evening pleasure. I wrote my goals down and I feel pumped up to knock out these last two months. I cannot wait for this semester to be over....I am impatient actually. I love an empty dorm and the summers to myself.
So let's hope these last two weeks go by very quickly and that my my bum gets super small...lol

No seriously...what in the name of all that's GOOD AND HOLY...just had a convo with a friend who said I was rude at lunch. I am a bit taken aback..like where is this coming from. This is why I don't roll with homies and associates. Team Yolande likes to keep it real low with one on one conversat

I have two months to get it together...I'm listening to the wind outside howling and I just want to crawl back into bed. I know that I have to do some major running to work on my butt, waist and hips...problem is I DEPLORE RUNNING. ahhh but it works. I did some self sabotage last night and helped myself to an oatmeal cream pie, peanut butter cookie and a pack of Jammers..all in less that 15 minutes. I sometimes wonder if I have a thyroid problem or just a huge love of sweets. I think if I don't see it, I'm in a much better place. So right now no snacks or junk in my room at all.

Size 8

I tried on a dress today size 8 and it did not FIT.
I'm done

Cranky

I am SOOO cranky today, I went to the gym and just walked out. Too much people and way too much noise. The weight is taking too long to come off and though I have lost almost 20 pounds I am concerned about the next 20 that must come off before this freaking wedding. So I plan to really stick to shakes and salads for the rest of this month and April. My thighs literally have an area code and I wonder how did I allow it to get this bad.

I think today will be a Billy Blanks day!! I haven't spent anytime with my spandex wonder and I believe the body has to shake it up every now and then. I have an event tonight which I'm not looking forward too, but alas I'm cranky and I probably need some endorphins and maybe cleaning my apt will help.
Yes, I think some West Side story and banana-strawberry shake and cleaning will help me out of my funk.
Ta-ta
Question....does anyone know anyone in the Huntsville Junior League...I would really like to join..

I'm BACK!!

Jamaica was WONDERFUL...the sun, the food and good company was just what this girl needed. I am excited to be back at work and just enjoying the last few weeks of school. I feel rejuvenated and I'm actually taking this week to fast and pray. One meal hopefully a day and just silent reflection on God's goodness and his will for my life.

School this semester is a goal I'm working towards and I feel like I'm very close to making Graduate School a reality for me. I need to just focus and take it day by day and give myself some mini goals. I will put some pics up later all of which show my chubby face, but ahhh I have no one to blame for that but myself. I also plan to really step away from meat for a while. It's not healthy and if I plan to lose some weight and keep it off it might just help. Other than that..I plan to do some jogging tonight and relax hopefully with someone I care for;)

Pics soon to come...

p.s I believe that Jackie would go and get herself an manicure so I'm off to do that hopefully tonight...ta ta

Obligatory

Jackie Bouvier Kennedy Onassis

Picture

look at that waist..the bow and pearls..sigh:)

J.CREW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Man oh man, I love J. Crew..I could end my post right there. I actually bought some stuff yesterday. I plunked that green money down so fast for two reasons. One because I wanted what I was about to purchase and two) because I wanted to show the person I was with a point. I'm so upset and frustrated (editor's note) I started this post last night and I'm starting it again at 5:11. Long story short I am MISERABLE in this relationship that I am in. He basically summed up our relationship with the words I was going to give you 2 hours. What... Long story short I am leaving to Jamaica in 2 days. I need to purchase some things for my trip. I need to go to the mall, Walmart etc. He has this habit of waiting till the last minute before sunset to clean his house and so on....I cannot shop, buy or anything after sunset on Friday which is another story :)
So....I wait and wait and WAIT and now he comes strolling in at 4pm saying oh we can go now..are you serious????!!!! I'm more upset at myself because I have let him get away with this sort of foolishness for too long.

Ahhh I'm sitting her in my office...just relaxing and enjoying my Friday evening. I'm also drinking my weight in water as I am trying to lose some weight before Monday. My butt literally has a life of its own, but I'm confident that by June I will be perfect. Remind me to stay away from sweets. Also eating late at night. I think I might be spending my weekend alone so I plan to make some really healthy choices. Someone told me in order to lose weight I should forgo meat...argghhh I LOVE MEAT!!(ewww that sounds a tad bit gross..lol)

Maybe I can let it go for two months and I will see what happens. I wish I was the sort of girl who could really stay away from chicken and such. As I am going to the beautiful island of Jamaica on Monday I hope that I will be able to turn my head away from goat, chicken, beef and all other sorts of meat they have in Jamaica.

I will try I love feeling healthier and though I am at the half way point I still feel good that I have been so consistent....I plan to really up my workout after this trip. I am staying at a hotel with a 24 hour gym,..so I will have no excuse to not run and do some weights.

Alright so the two things I leave you with are: My relationship is hanging on a thread and I plan to drink several litres of water and green tea today! Yipeeee;)

Ahhhh..hello there

What a horrible blogger I am...I just got everything back to speed...so hopefully you will hear from me more often. Now what has changed since the last time I checked in. Well my bottom is much smaller thanks to grueling exercise and denial of sweets and treats. I have not cracked open my LSAT book in almost 2 months, geez louise I need to get back into the swing of things. My cousin is getting married in June, so I'm happily sweating and squatting for her upcoming nuptials...and work is going well. I still wish I was living in either NYC or California but I believe God has something brewing for me.

On the "fun-front" I am getting ready to go to Jamaica in less than 5 days. I do have some flight anxiety but I hope to remedy with some Tylenol PM..hahaha little druggie I am. Either than that I plan to bless the local JCrew with my presence and spend some money that I don't have. I need some cardies and some pants/shorts/skirts. I am not a summer person, so I hope to find some bright colours. How could I forget, I received a huge package from my Mummy..15 dresses, scarves and all manner of things. I hope she sends me some flat shoes for my trip I'm not quite a sandal girl...so nice trusty flats for me.

Now comes the solemn part of this post...

I, McKenzie plan to POST at least three times a day. I have no real excuse since I am an Internet junkie..I guess my procrastination issues get the best of me..I will try harder I promise.

I will now leave you with some CUPCAKE LOVE...I really need to get serious about this little side gig. I made some S'MORE Cupcakes...they turned out really well.

Hahhhaaa the cupcakes are all over this post...