Gladiator Sandals

Let me be honest by first saying that I hate my feet. I probably hate yours as well, because all feet disgust me. Especially Men feet, I will cancel a date if I see flip flops anywhere in my near vicinity.. I could careless how nice you are. Gladiator Sandals are an issue for me, the parade around as faux boots that give your toes AC. I just cannot deal with them. Every time I go to the mall or nearest shopping center and see them I cringe. I just don't believe they make sense, and very rarely do they look good on people. I hate all shoe wear that is high to the knew but open to the toes. You might say, yeah Y, what about the "low ones" and I still say BOO! They make your feet look so flat, if you have slender feet they look skeletal and if you have chubby feet they looked like Vienna Sausages...I just can't deal with the. Now I must admit, I've seen look cute with skinny jeans and an airy " My rent has been paid" expensive blouse...but yeah most people can't rock that style. Case in point Jennifer Hudson and this walking nightmare, eek makes me want to jog, eat cucumbers and burn those shoes off while the wearer is STILL wearing them.

Dramatic yes, serious YES!

Before we all run to Baker's to pay 29.99 for these doozies, let's just have "real talk" with our feet. Ask you feet and yourself, is this what I really want to say. Is this the image I want to portray. Not every trend is for you and this trend ended with the Romans, so please think twice for purchasing.

What kind of shoe do you rock on a daily basis? Heels, flats, sneakers etc...

Fatty McFAT

I'm on a workout get my body fit plan....and I'm tired and not seeing results as fast as I would like. I put on a lot of weight, more than I realized. This is the heaviest I've ever been, especially around the butt and hip area and stomach for that matter. So it back to water, I work out once a day and trying to stay away form sweets and cars. These last two days, I've eaten some junk and today I have to get back on it. I plan to do some TaeBo this morning, then off to Wally World I got to buy some fruits and things I can eat. I find that when I don't have healthy snacks I eat what's available plus if I don't eat breakfast I lose complete control.

Can I be honest, my looks are important to me and I hate looking at beautiful clothes I have that I CANNOT wear. Most of my clothes are size 4 I'm currently a 8. You do see the dilemma My hips and stomach have never been an issue, but a lot of fat has accumulated there, so working out is imperative for me. I have my beautiful cousins wedding in July 2009, I plan to visit my home looking out of control HOT. Let's view a checklist of things that must happen to achieve this.

1. I have to work out everyday

2. I have to drink no less than 2 gallons of water a day

3. I have to eat fruit and vegetable every day.

4. I have to stop snacking, (chips, cookies, sweets have to be handled with care)

5. I have to stop driving as much and walk

6. I have to get more rest

7. I have to try on a dress every week to view my progess

8. Most important I have to go to CHURCH!

So my plan is by December to be a strong 6. From there I will transition to a 4 by May then tone up for July. Its so important that I lose this weight, I just don't feel sexy. The guy that I'm constantly complaining about is a complete sabotage...so I have to really watch my food choices around him. SideNote: I've chose Sunday to be my cheat day. I enjoy wings on Sundays with a can of pop, its my thing don't judge me.

Some of the fast food restaurant places I like to go that serve something healthy are (gasp, gasp lol)

Wendy's for their CHILI

Taco Bell for their Spicy Chicken Burrito

ChicFil-A for their side salad with chicken bites

Really its just better to stick to fruit, chicken, salads, water and vegetables:(:)

that's it if you have any inspirational words or diet tips PLEASE LEAVE A COMMENT

The Fog, Hammer and Chomping

I am so frustrated! I had that long talk with you know who and it did not go well. Basically I told him in my own legalistic way, that dating exclusively was a total waste of time. My parents and their sheer hate of the fact that I am dating someone old enough to be my father is a point of contention with me. Today he brought up some insane foolishness, like "am I enough" and my favorite "do you like someone else". I lied to him and told him "No". Well the truth be told, I am interested in this young chap I met a month or so ago. He pops into my thoughts at least twice a day, and I find myself wishing he was the last voice I hear before I go to bed.


I'm not sure if this is a phase and I have prayed about. I do know that I can't date him, if I'm with someone else. I wonder sometimes if the "The Hammer" (we shall call him this, henceforth") is really worth it. My next post I will fill you on in the details and stats. I totally dig him and we get a long, but sometimes I wonder if I'm selling myself short. I'm a complex person and for the first time ever, marriage is something I want to pursue. I'm not sure if I want to pursue with someone that old. I do know its quite possible that I will be a caregiver and I'm not sure if I want to waste my golden years doing that. Another thing that makes me weary is he jealousy/possessive crap. Now this must be a generational thing but...every male I speak to he tries to regulate my interaction. I have a good friend we went to college together and he said that if he visits we can't go to the movies. I was like "SAY WHAT"!!! He said it's inappropriate for us to that, that sort of activity is reserved for couples. In my head I whispered not where I come from...lol.

So I have a lot to ponder, so if you have any good break-up suggestions or maybe thoughts on dating May-December please let me know. I feel like I'm walking through a fog. I know I don't want to end all communication with him, but he doesn't believe in dating casually. I mean what's wrong with dating casually????


Ok on to something else. My diet and workout plan, has been going swimmingly. I work out everyday for at least 50 minutes. I did Tae-bo on Monday and I resumed my love/hate relationship with Billy Blanks. WHAT A SADIST!!!... I feel motivated and I'm already picturing myself in my size 4 dresses. I'm tired of being fat and lazy it's time to get sleek and lean. The eating part for me is still a challenge, but I'm forcing myself to eat as many servings of fruits and veggies as possible. My water intake has been good, I'm always pushing myself to drink one more gallon. I'm ready to bring 2003 back, when I was my slimmest. My hips and thighs are taking over my life. I have so much beautiful clothes that I cannot wear because my lips won't start chomping. I am regaining my life, and every good week I have I reward myself with a treat. This past Friday It was cosmetics from Anthropologie. This weekend, I may try to finally watch Sex and the City...I really want to see it on the big screen ( I know I'm super late)

Ok, it's 2;30 here I'm off to bed...peace:)

What Would Jackie Do

oh dear that is way to close to WHAT WOULD JESUS DO..... this to Jackie Says....

Now for those of you who don't know this... I am a big Jackie Kennedy Stan! I love her and her effortless chic and style. I'm currently reading American Queen her autobiography and so far it is very good. I enjoy her little nuances, how she blocked out negativity, married well and always looked perfect in the media. I like to think that I am a Jacqueline in training and I hope to embody some of the high standards she stood for.

So I will be featuring a new post at least once a week called.... Jackie says....

Now lets start with BEAUTY first..

would Jackie spend $250 on a bottle of La Mer.... you bet you bottom dollar she would. She would much prefer that her beau of the moment pick it up for her. You see men need to realize if you are spending time with me, you may need to assist in up keeping me. I have finally convince my mother-dear that I NEED a bottle of this wonder working cream. Genetics and water can do so much, and when you have a product on the market that scientist and celebrities rave over...you MUST jump on the bandwagon.

I promise you..you will see results. My mom has been using it for a few months and her face looks incredible.

#2 Would Jackie Diet....

Ummm yeah...she would. Now she would diet discreetly ladies, please do not bring you 2 gallon jugs of the Lemonade diet to work...we don't need to see all that. Fat is not cute, especially when you're trying to wriggle yourself into couture. I am actually on a diet, I have some weight to shed and I have clearly lost my natural mind, because I have abandoned my size 4 skirts. I plan to work out 1 hour a day and drink lots of water and eat 80% good and have my 20% cheat days. I'm also trying to get as much fruits and veggies into my system as possible. This unsightly weight gain is a Jackie NO NO! The only way to lose weight in my opinion is to attack it with a vengeance and keep attacking it till your body surrenders to you will.

That's it for now, if you have any beauty and diet tricks please feel free to share.

kisses

Y

So, its Monday how are YOU doing

It's been awhile, so allow me to get you up to speed...

I spent 10 glorious days in California and it was JUST what I needed. Though I was there for work, it was relaxing and just what I needed to get rejuvenated. One thing that did happen, I turned into a shopaholic again, which was nice. Since coming home, I have dealt with some relationship issues, mostly me not sure if I want to stay in it.:(...I also got my new contacts and they are sooo much better. Though seeing is daunting, every pore and mark is magnified right now. I also added that special someone to my Facebook friends list and I'm really hoping something happens. I can't seem to shake this feeling that we are destined to be together. Corny yes, but hopefully true.

I also came to my breaking point weight wise this past Saturday. My goodness I have gotten FAT and for the first time it was disturbing. So I'm starting a 21 day fruit and veggie program and I'm hoping that I will stick to the plan. I also plan to workout twice a day for the 21 days to rev my metabolism. My goal weight is 127 so I have about 20 pounds to lose.

Whenever I get in relationships, I balloon...its a total lack of self control and I hate that about myself. I have also decided to finish another degree and my plan is to attend law school next fall. I have some classes that I need to complete...so I'm about to get into worker bee mode. This blog is supposed to be somewhere I come to vent and try to figure stuff out. So if you have suggestions please let me know.

Life is good, and though this birthday brought an uncomfortable feeling of uncertainty. I do know that I'm ready for a serious relationship with someone who is ambitious and driven. I also am ready to discuss marriage which has been a major NO NO in times past. So yeah I'm in a good place, just trying to get my head around some things.

ohhhh yes I bought a Jackie Kennedy book at Barnes and Nobles last night, America's Queen...it's quite good so far.

how do i say this polietly....

i want out and I'm not exactly sure how I'm going to accomplish this.