You can keep your FRUIT!

I think I can finally speak clearly and with some thought about my work drama.

I work in a place with a few hundred women. I am single and my achilles heel is always that I'm single meaning that i'm screwing everything in sight. Well I was accused of doing something less than Godly and my boss spoke to my boyfriend about it. Now on a normal day that's fine but I think her attitude and opinion on the whole situation is crazy. First of all students lie..a lot especially when the are reprimanded by an adult. Now I've been accused of having my boyfriend stay where I live. Now this student and I have not been seeing eye to for the last few days and that's fine because I do not count my students as friends..its actually quite dangerous to do that.

I do have a problem with the way my boss handled it. I think there are better ways at handling "he said she said situations".. First of all I have the right to meet and discuss the situation with my accuser. And I don't need her to defend me or plead my case, because I really believe that you have to stick up for yourself and make an example out of one person. I'm not sure how its even plausible to take a students side without seeing my side or asking me about it or better yet..doing what's biblically right and letting me speak to the person.

I just received an email from her asking to meet at ten. I'm sure that she wants to rehash the whole situation and a part of me wants to be upset and rant but another part of me believes that I have to be quiet and just be humble about the whole situation. I am not new to rumors and I think when you get in a huff you allow others to think that there might be truth to the rumor. As for my boyfriend I am not sure what do with him, because I think his loyalty is very conflicted (he told my boss about my birthday and about me going to my university appointment that went very well) I said to him, why would you do that..did I ask you to say something..his thought on it is that you used to be friends so what's the big deal. Well the big deal OLD ASS is that I don't want you to spread my business to every and anyone wether they were my friends or not.

So anyways I do know this..I love my job and I work very had at making good decisions everyday. I'm not perfect but I take my job seriously I want to continue working at my job but I want to be in a place where I am respected and that people believe the things that I say.

I'm not sure if I look that much in heat to make such a stupid decision like having my boyfriend stay over. Alas, it is very important that I keep my head up and do the very best and right things no matter how hurt I am or upset. I have stayed away from my job ( I don't work summers) and it feels good not to have that sort of responsibilty.

I know I did the wrong thing in terms of this..my boss gave me a fruit basket and I tossed it on the ground. I plan to throw it away..because really I don't want anything from her..don't respect me don't give me fruit. I know it might be childish but that's how I feel right now. I just think its a little to late and I also think that my relationship is not what it should or will ever be. I'm going to try and ignore my boyfriend for awhile, kind of do me. I'm tired of fighting this fight and plus I should be dating someone who has like goals and aims.

So that's what going on in my life..work is tense and so is my relationship..I do feel happy though because when God gives you trials you just have to do the best to plug on and trust that he is holding your hand.

See Ya
Yolande

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I am having a horrible day at work..I know God has my hand..but boy oh boy today was rough. I cried 3 times, yelled and swore. I choose to be rational and polite and not act in a way people expect. If you pray..please pray that I do the right thing!


p.s I'm listening to Stevie Wonder "Do I Do" I feel a bit better and I watched the foolish movie "Dance Flick" it was hilarious..stupid funny. I needed that tonight:)

I love Anthro & Papasan Chairs!

So I had a wonderful day.. I did some "light shopping" yeah right!! (ha) and I dropped some moola at Anthro..I wanted to pick some stuff up at Jcrew..but I really didn't see anything that said purchase me. There is a store at my local mall that has such cool stuff. I totally plan to start shopping there as soon as I lose a little more weight:)..So I bought two tops, a scarf, a funky headband and some lip gloss. Since I celebrate my birthday all week I plan to shop a lot more this week. I got a really cool gift for my bday. I GOT A PAPASAN CHAIR!!! My boyfriend is really good at buying me gifts that I talk about randomly. He has bought me things like clutches, CD player from Brookstone and now this..I am so grateful for him..he can me great when he wants to. He also took me to Phuket for dinner and I had the BBQ Thai Chicken...have mercy it was divine. We sat outside and chilled. Good times I say..We got back just in time for his game and now I'm just relaxing. I hope to do my nails tomorrow and just do some more shopping. I also have a business trip coming up and of course my 21 day detox with officially starts tomorrow..I know this is going to be tough..but again if anyone wants to join me..please let me know:)

I also have an appointment with the Chair of the History department at the local university where I live. Please pray that all goes well. I feel great this birthday. Last year I was pretty down and sad but now I feel like its time for a new beginning and I'm feeling quite blessed.
OF COURSE I have to end this with some drama... my ex just called me..I tried it back to no avail..I'm sure he's calling to say Happy Birthday and move to NYC and be my wife:)

Goodnight!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

It's my BIRTHDAY today WOOT WOOT WOOT!!! In honor of this day let's gaze upon my personal icon..Mrs. Jacqueline Bouvier Kennedy Onassis..ahh what a breath of fresh air and look at her teeny tiny waist..(pass the slimfast)

and...I kind of fit into my Club Monaco dress today..I am very happy..for the next 21 days..I am just eating fruit and vegetables..NO CARBS...NO MEAT...NO JUNK!!!...who wants to joing me???

plus i'll be working out for the next 21 days twice a day..My goal is to drop 10 pounds..WOOT!

I just added this picture because I love what she's wearing..and in some ways she has the "Jackie O vibe"..

Jillian Michaels

Hi Everyone..

Jillian Micheal's is literally kicking my ASS! My LORD that lady is tough. I'm totally enjoying her workout which promises to make you lose 5 pounds in one week. I'm not sure if that's true, but I am in pain and my core is killing me. The workouts are broken into 6 sessions and each session is challenging and difficult. Well let me take that back, they aren't difficult but if if you are look for a cute workout..please do not buy this DVD. One thing that she says many times during the video is "DO NOT PHONE IT IN"..whenever she says that I laugh, because many times we don't accomplish our goals because we simply "phone it in". It took me awhile to get to the point where I know that my body and mind realize that I cannot eat wings every night. I used to be quite vain about my body and for a long time I had one of the best bodies in my inner circle. I didn't eat junk and when I did, I had to my fill and moved on. The last few months I have become obsessed with food. I'll be eating breakfast and wondering what's for lunch lol.


Well, I'm doing much better..I do have moments where I want a huge burger but normally I can control my cravings and just eat something healthy. I do still have a problem with eating at night. For some reason around 3 am I get very hungry..I always say that I'm going to drink some water..but normally I reach for the nearest thing around me. I also believe that having one cheat day is very important. I normally use Saturday as that day, and since my boyfriend is vegetarian I normally eat much less meat than before.
This is becoming a diet blog..not sure if I like it..but ahhh well

Yesterday I took my much older man friend to Macaroni Grill for dinner. I had the Chianti Steak and let me TELL YOU SOMETHING..it was great! It was nice to sit back and celebrate his birthday..he turned a WHOPPING 48 yesterday and my birthday is next week..I still have to get him something but I'm not sure what?????? But on to better things....what do I want for my birthday..

My treat to myself is..

La Mer face cream:

Why didn't I get MARRIED

Wooooo this is doozy. I was on the phone with my mother a few hours a go talking about relationships and my lack of a stable one. I am dating someone but its anything but stable and I am completely aware of this. I decided to walk timidly down memory lane to "visit" some of the men that I've dated. Now I believe in putting God in the middle of your relationships... with many of them I didn't because I don't think a lot of them deserved to meet God...lol..funny yet very true. I do think I date the same sort of person...the guy who comes at you very fast but has no staying power. The guy who promises you loads of things but cannot follow through. As for me..I know I'm a difficult person to date. I can be very opinionated and strong-willed but I wonder if any of these guys had any real intentions towards me. This isn't a sad post about unrequited love..because I totally believe that "everything happens for a reason".....

I know one thing, that I do expect the best from whomever I date..and I will quickly cut the relationship off the person becomes selfish or mean. The relationship I'm now in is going nowhere fast but there is a "sweet relief" to that. I'm not one to make unrealistic goals..so I haven't stated what I want or need from this relationship.. I do feel myself being drawn to someone, I think I may have pushed them away. I pray that this is not the case, because he's one of those guys you could totally marry and be happy forever with. I went as far as to delete him off Facebook..WHY DID I DO THAT!! I can tell you why my friends..I was on my frigging period and literally a raging lunatic...anyways..Have any of you ever liked two people at the same time. Should I leave this guy alone and just focus on my relationship with my "boyfriend"..let me know....

Cheers!

Here I am the desk typing away to myself (lol) but let the show go on...

Lots of things are happening right now and I'm preparing for some big changes over the next few months. I sometimes have issues with following through and this year I cannot afford it. I have a birthday coming up and I'm pretty OK with it. I know my gift to myself will be going to grad school and eventually becoming a fit and healthy girl. My weight loss week with my mother here was a hard week for me. I ate everything I had been craving for the last few months..but it was good now I'm over it and I'm eating healthy again. I bought a Jillian Michael's video and its literally kicking my tail..but its good to shake it up sometimes I still have a lot of butt, thighs and stomach to get rid of.

Nothing new on the relationship front..I'm still just doing what I normally do just floating around. School will begin to kick my tail very soon but its good to kind of have a distraction. Things at work are all right, I would love to make a change but right now my options are very limited and I know I just have to hang in there and do what has to be done.

I have a few trips coming up this summer so I'm looking forward to it and just having fun. My boo's bday is coming up in a few weeks...48 WOWZA who would have thought it:0...so I need to get him something for William Sonoma with the quickness...

I'll check in later back to watching BIGGEST LOSER, drinking water and plotting my escape to Walmart to pick up some chicken and veggies...

see ya

Ok so life is good..except that I might be falling in love with someone who is NOT my boyfriend. Ahh the drama!!! This was totally unexpected but he gives me love cramps and I quite enjoy it. I'm not sure what do with this and since I am in a relationship its turns a simple situation quite complex. I know that cheating is totally out of the question, I still find myself wishing I could hold his hand.
On the weight loss front, things are going slowly but I am making food choices..I didn't work out on Wed or Thurs but I ate well so I'm hoping that everything will be OK. I have less than 6 weeks to do some major damage I'm hoping for 2-3 pds per week. I plan to eat very clean and healthy and drink tons of water. I'm still quite thick though...can a girl get at least a size 6. I'm tired of my chubby face.
I have no plans for this weekend except to work out and clean my apt. My mother is coming by to visit me on the 4th, so I'm totally excited and anxious at the same time. She drives me crazy in a very good way lol. Well I'm waiting for girl I'm paying fifty bucks to get her tail back to head and finish up. The dorm is almost empty and for that my friends I am TOTALLY excited!!! Ahhh my vacation is sooner than I thought and I can't wait to veg out and just do me. Anyways if you are reading this please leave me a comment let me know you exists..a girl could use some bloggie friends:)

g'day!